I had a dream I woke up in cold sweat, shivering in your room. The lights were out inside, and outside the glass door it was deep blue, the oxygen was escaping through the cracks in the wood, becoming bubbles and rising miles above, to the surface where the dolphins splashed water. I was learning to forget how to breathe just to give you another ( Read more... )

cognition: operative

initiating system check...
physiology mechanics: functional
loading psychology matrices…
accessing personality concepts… effective
accessing memory concepts… available for recall
psychology system online.
- system overload -
analysis...
chemistry: hyperactive
source: unknown
class: phenomenon

emulating consciousness... online.

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i'm only writing this because i ran out of codein. otherwise id just take two pills every four hours as i have for the past few days. but today i woke up and they were gone, left me alone with the pain and habit. once you do it long enough the two pills aquire a taste and the ritual of chasing them with a glass of water becomes so meaningful ( Read more... )

back in california. plans ( Read more... )

Amsterdam airport, perfect stranger: look at the girl by the window, watching the birds taking off. She’s beautiful, shagged up by the turbulence. She’s smoother then a perfume commercial, perfect as still life - animated; she doesn’t know she’s playing in an art film. Girls I’ve met before, ones with names, they never knock me off my stubborn feet ( Read more... )

I want you to know - I’m not coming back ( Read more... )

I’ve got to get out of here. I’ve got to break away ( Read more... )

Almaty, Kazakstan. Starting December 29th, 2003 up to now ( Read more... )

This is everythig in the past few days. Most people like to hear only nice things, so most people can go ahead and skip this one. And I didn't cut the bullshit, either, I'm just typing and posting, as is ( Read more... )