Last night I had high school dreams. I had the typical one where it's finals week, but I haven't studied or even been to class all semester. So I have no idea what I'm going to be tested on. I think one of them was a math final. The class was in J building, so it was at the high school, but the teacher was Mr. Deleon, who was my math teacher in ( Read more... )

I finally started having dreams again. But they're not like my typical dreams. There's no story line. All my life my dreams have had some sort of plot, bizarre as it may have been. Then I didn't dream at all for a long time. Now it's just a bunch of flashes of images. There is pretty much no dialogue at all. Sometimes I see people I know. But ( Read more... )

I realized I need to learn to make decisions. I've always known I'm terrible at trivial decisions, like where to go for lunch. I like to think I'm good at big decisions, but I'm not. I've made some fairly large decisions in my life, and I like to think that I looked deep within myself, decided what I wanted, and made it happen. I now believe that ( Read more... )

The world has turned and left me here
Just where I was before you appeared
And in your place an empty space
Has filled the void behind my face 
 

To treat depression: (1)Take a liberal dose of Ted Leo and the Pharmacists...(2) Dance...(3) Repeat as necessary ( Read more... )

I hate not knowing. I hate that feeling of not knowing where my life is heading. I spent about a year in college not knowing what I wanted for a career. I always had it in my head that I wanted to be a teacher. Then I did some tutoring and I decided I wasn't going to get any fulfillment out of teaching. That was a hard time in my life. I no longer ( Read more... )

New Found Glory put out a greatest hits album.

Hmmmm....

Does this bug anyone else? Bands putting out greatest hits albums when the band members are still in their 20s? That bugs me a little. They have 5 albums of original songs. They have 2 additional albums made up of cover songs. They have been a band for about 10 years. A greatest hits album ( Read more... )

 I killed 2 spiders this morning. Ew!

You’re hiding something, ‘cause it’s burning through your eyes
I try to get it out, but all I hear from you are lies

And I can tell you’re going through the motions
I figured you were acting out your part
Once again, we’re playing off emotion
Which one of us will burn until the end?

Catalyst, you insist to pull me down
You contradict the fact that you ( Read more... )

 I listened to Bad Scene and a Basement Show by Less Than Jake a couple times in the car on the way to work today. That song reminds me of my junior year of college, commuting to Hayward with Chuck. It reminds me of "earning it." I should really stop listening to Less Than Jake for a while. They have so many songs about running away ( Read more... )