sea monkeys and hot dog smoothies

[chanceypoo]

i finally went to sleep last night...well this morning at 6:30. i woke up around noon. took a shower and went to dunhams and wendys with james and mike. i like spending time with those guys...they are like my big brothers. then i went to chelseas house because we were going to their track meet. she seemed very sad tonight. and then we went to

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[chelsea_beth]

had i wanted to go hang out with them at that point in the night, i would have let you know that. i would like to think that we are close enough that i could tell you if i want to go do something, but i didn't. i had made arrangements with dane and kristen for us all to meet up at eleven. it was set and i was happy with that. i didn't mean to make you uncomfortable or awkward, nor did i want to hurt your feelings, even though i know that i have a lot lately. i've just got a lot of crap in my life right now, and for once i am trying to deal with it in a more productive way other than cutting or using drugs or as i did last year, dumping an awesome boyfriend to do both. i know i'm hard to be around, i know that i get into moods that make me awkward to be around, i just don't really know how to deal with myself. sometimes its hard for me to know how to just be happy or content when in the back of my mind i know that there is so much going on, so much in my life that needs to be taken care of. i know you think i shouldn't care about joe

[chanceypoo]

you dont make me feel bad. sometimes i make myself feel bad. its not what you do its just my head. i tend to over think things. i realize that you have a lot of things going on and i'm happy that you are finding more productive ways to deal with them instead of how you have in the past. i'm proud that you can do that. i dont think you should not care what your dad and joe think..thats just the only answer i have for something like that...because thats just how i deal with things. and i realize everyone cant deal with things the same way. i guess i'm just insensitive and inconsiderate at times. i dont mean to be...i dont know...i just get uncomfortable sometimes...not because of you..just because of certain situations. i dont know.. i'll try to stop...sorry to make even more bad things for you to have to deal with. i dont mean to be a pain but i am sometimes and i'm sorry. i'll try to work on it.

HEY! NOT

[neater_beater]

ok first off no i'm not your bitch...i dont think anyways rabbit humper is libby and thats all that i have to say to that so i will see you all in about 4 weeks and damn will that be nice.