The day comes whether you expect it or not. Leaves fall from trees, the hottest guy leaves the band, and the perkiest tits commence sagging. These watershed events are all the same as beginning life on your own. For some it comes earlier than others, adulthood that is, but when it hits it hits like the cold air on a late fall day in New England. ( Read more... )

Kidding. Today i was reminded by my friend, Ayme that Im still alive and thats why i should be happy. Normally i would say "well whats so great about life anyway?", but i thought about what she said instead of immediately going all existential on her ass (im such an idiot). She was driving like a freakin maniac, but i managed to think about it, and ( Read more... )

This isnt a critique on my generation, but it is a critique of the similarities that i have with my generation. We are lazy. It's the truth, and it isnt all of our fault, it's everyones. But who's fault it is is insignificant, the issue is what i can do to change that. I can start by getting my act together in my classes. I have been saying that ( Read more... )

So i had a conference with my writing 1020 professor, Doug Haynes, today. I love the guy, he's really cool and the conferences that are scheduled for the semester are like therapy sessions with him. At this conference i found out that he noticed how scattered i had been, and he wasnt suprised by the fact that i was late for my conference. After ( Read more... )

I feel caught in a hurricane. I feel like ive created this and i control this hurricane, but i just cant remember how to stop it. It's one of the worst feelings in the world. I just cant remember. I think i just need to take some kind of break from my social life, and just focus on my responsibilities. Maybe stop smoking for a while, or cut back ( Read more... )

It can be a sad thought, but it's so true. I wish it wasnt, in regards to good things any way. Im trying to forget about the frat guy. I dont need the stress and i cant put in to words why i like him so much.If i cant even do that i should really try and forget him, hes not worth it. So i talked to my mother, and it became painstakingly obvious ( Read more... )

Im thinking that right now i need to get more of a focus and definite direction in my life. I would rather just kid of go with the flow, but my father and my grandmother a putting a lot of money into my college education. School is really sexpensive, and i want them to rest assured that thier money isnt going to waste. I need to really crack down ( Read more... )

Charisma, that’s what it is. That’s what he’s got. I couldn’t put a word to it, but it finally just popped in my head. It’s the perfect word. I saw him today. He looked the same as he always does. He was wearing that raggedy blue baseball cap, which has some design on it. I’ve seen him wearing that hat a million times but I’ve never actually looked ( Read more... )

I think i may have too many "friends" or associates, it's almost over whelming. Its kind of funny because this complex i have still pleagues me. I think that people only talk to me because they want to make fun of me. Not everyone, but some people. Thats uber paranoid of me, but i cant help it. I just know that people arent always as genuine as i ( Read more... )

Since i returned to school i have been going non stop. With meetings, the gym, class, work. Theres just so much that I have to do. I think the stress is really starting to catch up with me. Not only the stress of always being busy, but the stress from friendships and social situations. Theres just so much going on. I need a breather. This weekend ( Read more... )