Ok well. Its been almost a year since I last posted. it doesn't feel like it but time stamps usually don't lie. So here I am. I'm doing Pretty well and I'm about to head out of the country for 2 weeks just to clear my head. places to go people to see that kinda of thing. Ive never been on a real vacation with tours and things so maybe ill enjoy ( Read more... )

 With every waking moment I think of Him. I don't care how he feels for me because I know that I will always love him. From the bottom of my heart... I say with a quiver in my voice" I love him".  From the moment my eyes first met his it was all over. I fell head over heels for him and I couldn't find my balance. I knew that it wouldn't be easy to ( Read more... )

OMFG , its been over 4 years since ive posted in here. I bet all my friends have forgotten me by now. I dont hear from ANY of them :-P  Well life is new. I have my own house a great boyfriend and things are finally looking up for me. Im not broke anymore. and life isnt all bad.  I still generally hate the random public. why do people have to be so ( Read more... )

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I fucking hate EVERYONE, Im not worth anyones time anymore and its just become to much.... I dont even think anyone fucking attempts to care about me anymore .... Im moving at the end of may and Noone will know where I am but my family... and if I could avoid it noone would know but my mother and brother, but word seems to spread. My Apt is so ( Read more... )

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ok... the time has come... Im going to be admitted to the hospital at the beginning of next week, My mom is scared of what i am capable of, either hurting myself or others. She may not have seen or noticed, but I seem to have already done some rash things and Im scared, scared of myself. that shouldnt be the way it is but thats how it goes. Now ( Read more... )

I died last night... im not sure when it was but im positive its happened.. I feel betrayed, but then again why should I. I saw it coming right. Saw the outcome of my nightmares. not a pretty sight believe me. how can things hurt so bad when there is no emotion, none at all, i cant hear them or feel them so they must be gone right..... all i can do ( Read more... )

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