i'm not quite ready to just delve into my pocket and pull out all my emotions then type them out to share with everyone. i'm not looking for sympathy. i'm just hoping that this will be somewhat therapeutic for me. also, i apologize for pushing any of you out of my life. i let myself get caught up with things that were going on in my life. it ( Read more... )

my days are getting brighter.

=]

my mom didn't tell me what the nurses said day of surgery "i don't think he's going to make it, so just prepare yourself ( Read more... )

my dad now has an infection in his stomach. he cringes everytime they feed him. they barely noticed it yesterday ( Read more... )

birthday present

beirut ticket!
thankyouuuu nikki valencia!

i don't like driving to amoeba.
i get nervous.
too many cars. meeep!

i escaped death.

i forget to think.

and then i let my guard down.

which leads to stupid things happening.

and eventually, when my brain suddenly starts working again, i feel like shit.

i cry too much.

"When was it all right to let go not only of the dead but of the living - to learn to accept?"

i'm learning. and i'm coping with it. it's getting easier now. accepting the fact that it probably won't work out will hopefully allow me to be happy again.