"Im not a junkie for your love.." Brad and i have been together for almost 8 months now. i couldnt be happier. i love him more than i thought was possible. he pushed me to become a better person, someone i thought would never emerge again. and yet i have. i hardly smoke anymore. i dont even have the desire to. im motivated. i clean, i get out and ( Read more... )

soo im once again in between jobs. and i hate it. i feel so worthless. meh ( Read more... )

what a shitty one. work sucks. got in an accident with brit and missed 6 days at work. my car is fucked up, at brit's dads shop now.. broke up with ken =/ idk how to feel about that yet.. the daejtan is back, thats a good thing. annd.. idk. this world is a piece of crap =]

quit dunkin.. too much stress. waiting for dels. full time again this year =] and have an interview tomorrow at tj maxx.. maybe theyll let me do nights.. that would be cool ( Read more... )

got a job.. dunkin. hate it. but atleast its money in my pocket everyday.. im just hoping sharkey will let me come back to dels for the weekends this summer.. that would make things much better ( Read more... )

Life is slowly starting to feel a little better.. working hard on getting a job, basically moved out, have a new boyfriend, toria's baby's due in a little over a month, just trying to stay sane and get everything that needs to be done, done. i just want to be able to start making some money, so everything can just get even better. hopefully a job ( Read more... )

still looking for a job.. it sucks. bad.

trying to do fun things and have fun, but its hard when i have no money.. this is why i just need to save up enough to get back to naples.

talking to shawn again.. for the time being atleast =/

the god damn roads in NK ruined another one of my tires. PERFECT.

i cant do this.. at all.. i really cant.

"Leave me alone to die.."

how is everything always my fault.
i cant lose shawn. i've known him too long.
i need him..

i am all alone, and i have nothing.. or atleast thats how i feel. i just want to get out of here, escape from all the drama, everything that makes my head race with thoughts all day everyday. i cant deal with this anymore, i need to go back to florida. i need to make a life for myself.. i need to be happy.. and i need love ( Read more... )