i love how our kitten, banksy, thinks it's ok when he's sleeping on your chest to tilt his head up and try to bite a big chunk out of your face

"aj, I think the world of you. maybe me saying nice things will piss you off as usual, and you'll tell me you don't want my goddamn pity.
I don't pity you.
I admire you.
You're crazy, and sometimes honest to the extent where poeple would think you have no social tact. I find it refreshing. if you think I'm doing something lame, you'll tell me. ( Read more... )

so, typical through the course of my life i've noticed that most teenagers spend alot of time in and out of relationships. constantly, and the minority of most people's time is spent out of them
well i've had like 3 relationships in my whole life, and none of them were longer than 3 months, and i kind of want to know what makes me this like, ( Read more... )

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so here i am.
and here i am and here i am and here i am

and i want for there to be something else but it's not.
and it's not, and
                            i don't see how it could be here, with all of my own head against me and
nobody of anybody elses on my side.

i'm never going to get married by twenty two.

so, i'm situated in allston, in about three hours i'll have my paycheck for the past two weeks of working full time, some of it's going to rent and then the rest is to hold me over until my paycheck comes the week after this one; today comcast came by, and now we have a full package of internet, phone, and on demand with HBO, which is sweet because ( Read more... )

i can't say that none of this is my fault,
and i can't come up with a reason to explain
the solidity of all the apathy and indifference that i convey and feel.
i'm sorry.

it's so hard to bend down and focus on one thing when there's always something else on fire.

[side note:]
the song "ode to madonna" by zolof the rock& roll destroyer drastically improves my mood whenever i hear it, it's such a rad song.

when i'm up, i'm up

but good god, down is so down.

i want to put on my old sneakers and run to where everything isn't on me.

john, here's what i've got so far, titles are tentative ( Read more... )