If my post could be a little more emo, I could write a song about it and maybe be rich. Honestly, that whole going back through my LJ is cringy, but a necessary evil to understand where I've been as I strive for growth.

On romantic relationships:

When I'm in a healthier mindset, those upsets seem dramatic. I've realized that refusing to settle for ( Read more... )

Been a little over a year since I last wrote and to be very honest I still feel the same way with some new discoveries and heartaches. I find bullets useful for organizing information cleanly, its appealing to the eye, and it takes the emotion out of it, so here goes nothing:

- Guy A ended things with me for not being physical with him.

- Guy B ( Read more... )

Lately I've been thinking... I'm always thinking. I had to began writing privately because I was unsure of what I'd write. Some days it would be life goals; other times I make tangible list about things I needed to take care in order to achieve some peace of mind. Or maybe just peace period. I don't use my LJ very often because I've had it so long ( Read more... )

There are always things that will never change:

I'll always eat fast
Love rain coats and rain
Fear my mother and god
Be honest
Timid
Be myself...

Life is beating me down today. Hopefully, tomorrow will be better.

Someone who wants to help me when I need it.

Someone who wants to care for me, but not because I need it.

Someone who appreciates the pleasantries of tranditon.

Someone who wants me to have kids and a career because it's what I want.

Someone who feels free being themselves around me.

Someone who respects my freedom and won't judge me based on societal ( Read more... )

I think had I not been watching Akward I probably wouldn't be writing right now. I realize that my formative years were spent writing blogs and its interesting to watch a show where a blog is very important. Nothing interesting here. Trying to graduate, what's new? I've been on that path for the last 7yrs., so its about time. As much as I want a ( Read more... )

I always like to read the previous journal before I write a new one and as melancholy as that last one was and laughed at my note about Lil' Jon's philosophy on bitches. Honestly, I think if there is anything that needs to be considers, the things we listen to needs to be one of them. Lil' Jon has stopped from wanting to whip a many of bitches' ( Read more... )

Wow, is the best thing I can say. I guess I shouldn't be surprised, but I am. I hate confusion and being confuse. I think the best thing for me to do right now is to sit back and see what happens. I don't even have anything else to say about that...

It's strange how awful people are the only people that can get their cake and eat it too... Karma I guess only work for those that care. One of these days I'll understand the bullshit. Until then I'm just holding back the urge the throw a brick through dude window. I'm have a up and down week. I go from forgiving to hating at the drop of a dime ( Read more... )

Its been about 3 months since I heard from Waits and much longer since anything actually happened between us.... Honestly the only thing that doesn't makes since to me is him not being completely honest about our relationship from the very beginning. It was pointless for him to ever lie to me about something so stupid. Yeah, sure it wouldn't have ( Read more... )