so i definitely haven't been updating as often as i said i would ( Read more... )

shit, i've purged four times today already and i haven't even eaten a substantial meal.  i just purged diet coke and tostitos.  i have a problem with standing in front of our little pantry and just eating stupid food.  chips and bean dip.  triscuits and cheese.  i just can't stop and then everytime i snack i go purge.  and it's not even that much ( Read more... )

fuck bulimia.  it sucks because purging isn't something i even think about anymore.  it's just something i do.  and it's hard because i live in a dorm room and i have a roommate and i have to strategically pick times to purge.  if i don't get the oppurtunity, i get SO irritated and angry.  i don't feel like i have a disease, or that anything is ( Read more... )

i ate a lot yesterday.  i don't want to talk about it ( Read more... )

WHAT a weekend ( Read more... )

okay, so i've been looking around for pro-ed forums (i can't seem to find any of the ones i used to frequent), and every one that i come across has closed registration.  any help from anyone?

i did okay today.  i always start out good and then fuck it up in the end.  there's a little "mini-epidemic" of the flu going around my college.  everyone got free flu shots but we're all getting sick anyways.  i woke up stuffy and sneezy today so i guess it's starting for me ( Read more... )

D:  another mish mash of mediocre college cafeteria food.  i've really got to learn to control myself around buffets.  i've definitely learned that i'm a very compulsive eater.  (*note to self, stop using being stoned as an excuse to eat) i'm working on this...anyways i'll overestimate around 800 calories.  damn.  i purged. but not everything ( Read more... )

i keep telling myself that i'm going to post regularly, and of course i don't.  no time like the present i guess...

height: 5'6"
cw: 135? :(
hw: 135
lw: 112
stgw: 120
ltgw: 110

I still can't believe i let myself get this far.  at least i've got an ass now.  I kind of want to keep it.  but sacrifices must be made....

B: nothing
L: sandwich-450

i can't believe i'm doing this again ( Read more... )