Shane and I had a long long talk yesterday. He makes me realize that it's cool to just go with it and see where the road of life takes me. He told me I was beautiful. He said he wanted to grow with me. He wants me to talk to him when I am feeling upset. He listens when I talk and it is amazing. He really likes me for me. He's interested in my ( Read more... )

I fucked things over with Shane pretty hardcore. I didn't mean to, but I did it. He talked to me a lot about it. He's everything I could ever want so why do I feel like this? He said he'd wait for me, but I don't like people doing things for me. I like being independent. He shares my views on relationships and that is definitely scary. I feel ( Read more... )

It is now Sunday evening. A weekend full of fun stuff. I stayed at Shane's on Friday because he's cute. Last night was Etta's birthday party. It was fucking sweet. I enjoyed myself immensely. Shane ended up showing up and I went home with him....hahaha. At 4:30 this morning, I was putting my jacket on and I stuck my hand RIGHT into his fan on high ( Read more... )

in light of my last post, i must tell you that i am currently hanging out with a NEW cute boy ( Read more... )

Josh and I broke up ( Read more... )

I am just going to let everyone know if you are a negative person I do not want you in my life. I am trying to better myself and my situation. Yes life may suck. Yes people may shit on you, but you have the power to change all that. It's called personal responbility. It's kinda bittersweet seeing as how you have the power to change what you wish, ( Read more... )

i want to get out of rochester nh. fuck i need get out. i have this overwhelming feeling that i am better than rochester new hampshire. i have so much more shit going for me in my life than to stay working at my high school job and not moving anywhere. still living with my parents not going out and expierencing the world. fuck that. if you don't ( Read more... )

Tomorrow is my birthday ( Read more... )

So I need to vent. I haven't seen my boyfriend in a week or really talked to him and I saw him for two fucking hours tonight. Two hours. I just miss him so much and I was whining when he said he had stuff to do and I wasn't trying to be whiney I just I dunno. I miss him and I want him to miss me. He has his own things going on and I need to ( Read more... )

I think winter makes everyone depressed along with myself. I want so badly to say that I am a good girlfriend, but we'd both be lying if I said that. How do I do this everytime? How come I just can't be happy with the fact that I have an amazing boy that loves me dearly? So what if he isn't good at communicating Charlie. So what if he doesn't ( Read more... )