well...as i said to matt...i did something stupid. i decided to skip out of a huge math test to go riding with andrea. we stopped by Timmies, her house, and her farm to check on 'Mr. Vas'. Then twas off to the barn to visit my noble steed ( Read more... )

seriously. everyone i have talked to, hates and despises those whom i have just conversed with or will be talking too. does highschool do that to u? i guess not, the other day while i was out exhaling from the world, i got the biggest rant laid on me by a friend, about the person i was just about to chill with for the night. wtf? why can;t ( Read more... )

today is just not my day. i woke up this morning with one clear thought pounding in my head: i have to puke. now let me save you all a lesson. when u have this thought, there is no way to escape what is coming. hiding in your bed drinking water makes it worse. ignoring the thought makes it stronger. instead of moaning and groaning for half an ( Read more... )

alright i'll admit it. i've changed, maybe not for the best, but dammit this makes me happy. so i'm not a fucking little emo kid who wonders about life and pretends to cut myself just to make people notice me. why is it that the entire group i was so used to hanging out with flipped around into emo depressed kids who never even socialize. no, ( Read more... )

oh boy, do i dare confess this on the very exposing internet? gah, damn writing being an escape. life was goign so good, so perfect until he started contacting me again. it could have been anyone, but why him ( Read more... )

i have spent life wandering in and out of reality. my mind is not healed, and i doubt it ever will be. most of the time i blank out and feel rather empty. i have started riding again, first an old lesson horse named Sky, and then my own mount. it felt right on his back again, even though i had to shuffle away my anxieties and nerves. the ( Read more... )

okay, for all u people tearing down valentines day, this year i did not join u. yes...Teresa actually wasn;t alone on that day, in fact i took advantage of a snow day and flew downtown to my man. ooooh happy days it was fun. i shall be smiling for a few days now....

Much thanks goes to Brian for helping me remember that i actually HAVE a livejournal. now here's the big explanation for all u fuckers who wondered what happened to me ( Read more... )

well i'm walking on air. this morning i checked my emails and he left me a brief note. was cute and simple and made me laugh. loved it. i'm seeing him tomorrow. so giddy.

yes the time to be bitter and angry is NOW. heh, i wish i could stand here and declare my rage but there really isn;t any. ed and i are calling it quits for now...he's just too stressed out about university, and i don;t want to drag him down. later down the road we may re-unite...meh ( Read more... )