The past- well, months have been huge. Christmas holidays where spent with family from all over the world- from France to Hawaii. Now that they’re gone, not only is the house a lot quieter, but I miss the comfort. I have this portrait with my aunt and we look 100% alike. I’ll post it later on along w/ some others. But I miss her, and what she said ( Read more... )

Though I know that I can easily block out anything uncomfortable, but still hesitate when it comes time to act. After last week’s changes, I’m surprised that I haven’t turned back to my old habit. That- and I’m proud; of myself for coping, and of the friends who’ve helped to soothe away the stress.

Debate was on Saturday, and I placed, not a ( Read more... )

We stood irresolute, her at the door; me, in the middle of the room. She gave a sort of awkward wave, and then left. I poured my Scotch down the gutter, and soon found myself shaking hard enough to place my head between my knees. I sat like that for a while, and at some point started to laugh. It was startling- it went on and on. I was truly saying ( Read more... )

I’d gone through half a bottle of Chardonnay by 7, and for once I didn’t force myself to throw it up. For once I didn’t despise the taste of liquor on my tongue. I brushed my teeth hard, had a cold shower before collapsing into bed, pulled to cool sheet on top of me, and passed out.

When the door of my bedroom opened, I had no idea whether I was ( Read more... )

Even back when we used to tell each other everything, he’d always been hard to figure out. I’m still dimly amazed by the swift way he takes charge of the situation- no shock whatsoever. Normally that would irritate me- but around him, I feel reassured. He had woken something that had been sleeping for the past fourteen years. And now I’m afraid of ( Read more... )

I was waiting for so long
For a miracle to come
Everyone told me to be strong
Hold on and don't shed a tear

Through the darkness and good times
I knew I'd make it through
And the world thought I had it all
But I was waiting for you

Hush now
I see a light in the sky
 It's almost blinding me
I can't believe
I've been touched by an angel with love

Let the rain ( Read more... )

I stared out the window, listening. After their confession, everything felt quieter. I could hear their heavy, worried breaths; my own un-expectantly calm. The room was completely empty, except for the various knick-knacks stacked carelessly here and there; that didn’t ease the feeling of something hovering nearby.

Whispers of cold air rippled ( Read more... )

                                                         I am the Sun.
                                                        I am the Moon.
                                            I am the Rain and the Wind,
                                                I am everything there Is.

I am the ( Read more... )

I stand here before the world to see- naked, unaware of anybody; I hope someone can tell me where I went wrong. Sometimes the things that aren’t as obvious need to be looked at more closely. Appreciation for things non-physical surrounds us every day, but no one really seems to see it. I’m no different that the rest of you- there are so many things ( Read more... )

I am the only being whose doom
No tongue would ask no eye would mourn
I never caused a thought of gloom
A smile of joy since I was born

In secret pleasure--secret tears
This changeful life has slipped away
As friendless after fourteen years
As lone as on my natal day

There have been times I cannot hide
There have been times when this was drear
When my sad ( Read more... )