help me look for an answer: if worth the unnecessary, to be with you- you are a blessing, and i will keep trying. hours gone without a change, by turning your way we have escaped from the memories. so far away from voices, i hear you calling me& i can't respond. we stay hidden from these strangers; away from it all & my mind is numb. let's find our ( Read more... )

i feel pathetic.. how can i be so miserable? i did it again to you! i made you angry.. at me. im supposed to comfort you- to love you, to honor you- but i don't. and i try, so hard. to make you understand that you are my life, the one i love. i miss you. every day now, for a week, no.. more than that. i've been crying over you. i want you here next ( Read more... )

So many things have crammed themselves into.. only two days. Monday was the worst start of the week, especially after sunday nights' conversation. it ended up with raised voices, and neigher steven, demi, or i ate lunch. He was angry at her for disrespecting me, just like i was. It was.. well, to say the least- loud. I made up with him that ( Read more... )

he touched her. that bastard grabbed her- in places nobody should touch unless invited to. on my girl, my bestfriend, my lover! he violated her body, her space, her rights and he has the nerve, the bitter nerve to come to my door and ask for me. look me in the eye and tell me he didn't do it?! when i heard her, how scared she was and the hatred in ( Read more... )

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And my scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

Drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
I'm pissed cause you came around
Why don't you just go home
Cause you channel all your pain
And I can't help you fix yourself
You're making ( Read more... )

i'd come out of p.e, this time in the classroom. he's dead, the 3rd in his family in two months. and he's upset. it got to the point where i actually went over to Danika, and asked her to tell me what had happened. he had confessed to me during our lunch break, an open wound still on his skull where he'd been forcing it onto the side of his desk. ( Read more... )

I need to find a solution- it'll be a miracle if it works. maybe just an oracle.. she needs this. they believe i may have an effect on her- we are binded. of course, there are risks. but when i think i over.. are they worth it?

Their attempts where repelled- she is infected once again. by the same, horrible beast. she can see it now. i can only ( Read more... )

Nothing seems to be the way it used to
Everything seems shallow
God give me truth
In me and tell me
Somebody's watching over me
And that is all I'm praying

Someday I will understand
In gods whole plan
And what he's done to me
But maybe
Someday I will breathe
And I'll finally see
See it all in my baby

Don't run too fast dear
Why don't you stop
Stop and listen ( Read more... )

today was my mother's birthday- nice, long dinner with the family, gifts exchanged- and then off to the mall. somehow, she was in an extremely good mood, so i had a good time myself buying random things i really have no need for. jennifer and micha are stalking me tomorow, more shopping for the 7th (incase you can't tell, i have a huge smile on my ( Read more... )

.. to have you by my side.

you own the place- where all of my thoughts go hiding when there’s nowhere else to turn to, somewhere i can feel safe with a friendly face and open arms. i lose myself in your gaze and love who i become- only now it’s back to the same routine of waking up at dawn, rolling out of bed- to face new people, all of who will ( Read more... )