wow its been quite some time ( Read more... )

she said she "was worried and thought i had a problem."

I told her "i'd do anything for her" but did it behind her back. little did i know...

A great numb feeling washes over me as I let go of the past and look forward to the future. Pretend to be a vampire. I don't really need to pretend, because it's who I am, an emotional vampire.

i need a

i've realized that i drown myself in work, because im so fucking unhappy.

the new damien rice cd is possibly the most depressing heartbreaking music ive ever heard.

"i was only fifteen when i learned how to rock, those days are gone now, ive been around the block i was only too young to stand up on my own, we'd all fall over and only i would moan. now im just a bit too old to learn to love again..."

next stop on the road to failure = failing out of school. 2/4 midterms failed. sweet.

havent updated since the beginning of june. havent a real update in probably a year ( Read more... )

"What the hell did I know about California? For some people it was still a place of hopes and dreams, a chance to start over. The idea was if you could get there everything would be okay, and if it wasn't okay there, well, it probably wasn't going to be okay anywhere."

i'm back from spending a few days in jersey. thanks to jeff and amanda for having me, it was fun.

now it's time to start the hunt for a job.

i really thought i had more to say when i started writing this.

listening to goldfinger, especially the just like heaven cover, makes me feel like im in 8th grade again. its pretty awesome.