I am in love and it scares me to death. I have never been this way and I am happy that I found it. It hurts so much though. I am so confused...I am 19 and scared and I hope someone can help.

Last night I did the most horrible thing that I could have done right now. I cannot post what I did, because if Jason sees it, I am afraid of what he will do or say to me. I am afraid of losing this security that I have. I am ashamed of myself, but at the same time, I am finally at a point where I am like, maybe this life is not right for me. ( Read more... )

Hello all. It sucks to be me today. Jason has gone all psycho and was yelling at me today. He made me cry so much and at work, in front of people. They all consoled me and made me feel better, but that does not undo the stupidity of fighting and arguing and all that lovely stuff. It makes me feel horrible to be married to a man that does me ( Read more... )

Today Rae and I are gonna go watch the new Harry Potter movie. I am so completely excited...if I was 14 I would most certainly stalk and date Daniel Radcliffe. But sigh, alas I am not and am married to add to it. Its amazing the way he has grown up. I am almost sure he is like 20...hehe, I wish. I asked Jason to watch it but he does not seem to ( Read more... )

Today is the day to end all days. I have done nothing but lay around or roll around in the bed. Then I ate a pita sandwich...very exciting. I want to go hang out with my friend Kevin, but I always call him to go do stuff. So, I am waiting around for him to call even though I know that he will not. At work yesterday, I got kapok all over and ( Read more... )

I shit today.<---- Devon wrote this, just as she forced me to get a journal on here. I did shit today but that is all relative. Work was okay today....I didn't do much after work. I dyed Rae's hair and then watched Devon play the Nintendo 64. Then we ate pizza, thats it indeed!