aim
drinking
boys who make me feel shitty

[hoping this year's attempt works better than last's]

breakdown (what's new?) where i throw books (bounced off one wall, hit another, satisfying but not completely like sex with no orgasm--how could it have been better? maybe i should have screamed more), scream at myself (not outloud), am charmed by literary neurosis and paranoia and promiscuity. the calmest moment since about thursday has been ( Read more... )

Oh!--Special K Red Berries!--
How like a salad bowl of Heaven You are!
With your Crisp Strawberry Sweetness
And Tender soy milk-moistened Flakes--
You dance on my tastebuds and make them Yodel
Tremendously!

sometimes when i'm driving by myself during the day, songs on the radio make me cry. i like the pain that brings those tears because (i've said it a million times) it means i'm alive.

i can't find my notebook. i'm looking for my notebook. i'm worried about my notebook because i need it for class and it is an important class and i like this class and i don't mind taking notes for this class. where is my notebook? it's not under the bed, it's not on the shelf, i've emptied my bag and i've looked through the shelf. getting ( Read more... )

i started writing a post about two greeting cards i had bought about 7 years ago that i still have, but i deleted it because it makes no sense. the cards are beautiful though and i love them.

stressful month, for whatever reason. lots going on and lots of attempts to distract myself from everything and nothing that's really working ( Read more... )

holy fuck i miss you.

I have decided that in order to be a grown-up, I need to start using capital letters.

I have also decided not to skip class, though there are still 15 minutes during which I can convince myself that class is not worth the effort.

Being a grown-up sucks.

walmart at 9:30 after katie got out of work last night. beck and i took the bus up to meet her at towers. gifts.the aqua turf has uses this one. umbrellas for drinks? no, too expensive. home again, home again, jiggity jig ( Read more... )