I've been manic all week, frantic, crying, laughing, terrified of the future. In danger for the first time ever of failing classes. Got a job offer, but don't know whether I want to accept it. Terrified in general of real life and not being here anymore and going crazy because I'm not sure what's next. Was ready to leave high school, so didn't ( Read more... )

It's magic to revisit the work of someone of whom you were once jealous, only to find that his ability has not grown and that your own has surpassed it.

1. I try to be productive but am not ( Read more... )

i think all i'm really looking for is the man in every sappy country song i heard as a kid. but none of the mamas ever did let their sons grow up to be cowboys.

friday-worked in cheshire, hung out with my little brother (i think ( Read more... )

From kessicajelly via misfitsfanfare (it's early and i'm late for work, as well as too lazy to do an lj code thingy ( Read more... )

some days i'm not quite sure who i am.

i want to be max from where the wild things are next year for halloween. so basically, i need a furry white wolf suit with a hood that buttons up and has feet. and a crown, but that's easy. where would i even begin to look for this stuff?

i'm starting my annual novel at midnight (or tomorrow if i don't feel like staying awake). the plan was for it to be sort of random and crazy, but the more i think about it, the more literary it is becoming. i'm writing it by hand. wow this is boring.

p.s. spent the weekend at clarkson. still not drinking. it feels nice.

my to-do list from last night is 75% crossed off. this is unlike me because ( Read more... )