I don't even know where to begin. So many things have changed in my life. My family, my friends (or lack of friends), my jobs, my life. It's just been one crazy rollercoaster of of highs and lows. A bi-polar mish-mash of expeareances. Seriously can't even explain. I suppose all I need to say is that I'm happier now.

It's taken a long time, like a ( Read more... )

Have you ever had one of those days that the best thing to happen would be to get struck by a lightening bolt? Yeah, totally my day today ( Read more... )

A new job brings new hardships. Eventually, I will get caught up on things. Eventually, I won't have to live from paycheck to paycheck. Eventually better hurry it's ass up cause I'm sick of living this way.

I hurt. Both physically and mentally. Too many things happening too fast. Pain pills and cigarettes don't mix. Torn MCL's and broken hearts. ( Read more... )

So. . . . . I think I may give up. My rent is paid. Thank God. The big huge talk with my folks went better than what I had thought it would. They do have a point. I need to start acting my age and dealing with everything instead of just shooting from the hip and doing whatever I want. They do have a point ( Read more... )

Yes, Florida was great, killer, exciting. But now, I have no money to pay rent. . . . so I asked my parents to loan me some. Yeah. . . . we're talking about it tonight. So going to get my ass chewed into little tiny pieces. I should have known better than to think everything was going to turn out the way I was told it was ( Read more... )

Ah Florida! The burning sun. The smothering heat. It's so WONDERFUL!!!! I can't begin to tell you how glad I am to not be in Iowa right now. Like, really, you have no idea. I've missed seeing Amber like in person. Sure, we talk alll the time over the phone and text each other constantly but it's not the same. We're both such dork too ( Read more... )

It was the best of times. . ..
It was the worst of times. . .

Yeah. . . . Doesn't life just blow like that? I thought everything was all good. I actually, really, truely did. Like everything was under control. . . .. Yeah. . . Or not.

KABOOM!!!

Right in the face until only gore and bones were left.

So like, when my mom says shes done with me. What ( Read more... )

*clears throat* I repeat: I DO NOT GET PAID ENOUGH TO GET THE CRAP BEATEN OUT OF ME WITH HARDCOVERED BOOKS ( Read more... )

I feel. . . very unsettled. And I don't know why. I like my new roommate. Even though we never see each other. I'm going to class, working my ass off, planning trips, hanging out with family. I have a busy life. Not really all that fun of a life. But I am going to two different bars this weekend with two different groups of people. That could be ( Read more... )

It's funny, I don't feel any older. My birthday came and went and I barely batted an eye. It wasn't like the normal 'OH MY GOD!!! IT'S MY B-DAY!!!' thrill but it wasn't like bad either. I just didn't have the time to be excited. Besides, it was my 22nd b-day. It's really not that big of a deal ( Read more... )