Working overnights gives a person a lot of time just to sit and think about everything and nothing. It's the most boring way to pass the time yet the most rational. I hate thinking. It forces me to confront things I'd rather not ( Read more... )

I think I'll drop my usual poetic dribble. It's been forever since my last post. Not that I really care anymore. I dont' know if I should be writing in a "journal" when I'm in this kind of mood. I find that I can be very. . . . uncaring. I'm going to apoligize now, because, well, this is the beginning and I tend to only use this thing to rant or ( Read more... )

So long since my last post ( Read more... )

I had my first day of class this morning ( Read more... )

So ( Read more... )

I look out, 
In the newly fallen snow,
It's as if the world is hiding,
All the pain,

I've lost my anger,
Though my hate still remains,
I don't want to feel like this any longer,

I've lost control of my life.

Where do I turn to? 
When the world's lost its mind. 
When I feel so lost inside.

It's hard to explain, 
Knowing that you've fucked up your life,
Knowing ( Read more... )

私は愛する

私は憎む

私を必要としなさい

私が私を考えるので必要としなさい。

これすべての後、

すべての間違いの後。

私はあなたとの愛にまだある。

私はとても愚かでなければならない。

私はそれを知っている。

そう非常に愚か。

私はすべてを台無しにした。

しかし私はまだ愛する。

そう非常に愚か。

そしてより悪い事はある、

私は気遣わない。

Che cosa vedete

愚かさおよび愛がいつ混合するか見る何

More stable now.

Less likely to explode.

Tired,

to say the least .

I think my brain shut down.

Am I that horrid of a person? 
To warrent this kind of treatment? 
Tell me? 
What the hell did I do?
To make you do something this. . .

Low! 
This vile.
This. . .

Monsterous!

I'm sorry.
Is that what you all want to hear? 
I'm sorry.

I'm sorry for all of this. 
I'm sorry that I couldn't choose.
I'm sorry that I hurt them both.
I'm sorry that I hurt you all like ( Read more... )

So I know that I was all like gun-ho about changes and stuff ( Read more... )