It's miserable rainy day, but my walk back from class made me realize it's not all that bad after all.

The birds outside are thoroughly enjoying the rain. They are flying about and singing their beautiful songs with not a care in the world.

I really wish I were at home right now, though, for a number of reasons.

I'm in an ever present state of being stressed.

I would love nothing more than to spend Valentine's day with Clay.

Strike that. I would love nothing more than to spend our one year anniversary NOT at a WGI  competition where it's possible we'll see less than 20 minutes of eachnother, but together, alone, all day, just enjoying each other's company ( Read more... )

I'm stuck in a rut. I wouldn't say I'm unhappy, but there's definitely something off.

Valentine's day is not too far off, and I'll be miles away from my Valentine. 
Luckily for me, I will have a classes, a lesson, and a octet rehearsal: All thing I love...

Indoor drumline is fun, yet stagnant at the moment. 
I'm so glad I decided to do it. I didn't ( Read more... )

I don't feel right when I'm here.

I'm not happy. Not truely, at least.

I don't know what Im doing anymore.

- not that great right now

- difficult

- different

-  new

- expensive

- not what I expected

- lonely

- cramped, but soon to be less cramped

- confusing

- growing

- learning

- teaching

- missing people

- meeting new people

- tiring

What I miss:

- my family and pets

- my boyfriend

- my friends

- my drumline and band

- my own space

- my bathrom

- good tasting tap water

- ( Read more... )

Feeling down.

I'm worried and nervous.

007 summer is coming to an end. What have you been up to this summer?

1. Have you had more than 5 different boyfriends/girlfriends?
--- absolutely not

2. Had your birthday?
--- not during the summer

3.Been to church?
--- yes

4.Have you cried?
--- yes

5. Did someone close to you pass away?
--- no

6. Stayed up all night?
--- yes

7. Drank starbucks?
--- yess

8. Went ( Read more... )

DAMN IT I WROTE A REALLY GOOD JOURNAL AND IT JUST GOT ERASED! FUCK YOU, COMPUTER!

Meh.

I hope this week turns out to be more exciting than I anticipate.