starting over works.write that down. =)

so uhm i think im over it.
yeah im pretty sure i am. =)

in other news..
why does this mnystery man have to go 6 hours away....
im pretty sure i will miss him. =(

i miss him dearly ( Read more... )

i miss him so much today. my heart wont stop pounding and feel almost that i want to cry. hes over me. im over him. i love him. why is it like this? i thought it was done and no more feeling. i guess i was numb, trying to trick myself to think i felt. i feel weak and powerless. i have no control over anything. it hit me at olive garden. i was happy ( Read more... )

Well, mixed confused feelings all into one. What to do, what to do. Im tired of games, so i quit. You win! congrats! I think im just going to relax and start over. things have gotten waaaaay out of hand and now im laughing at it. I was sad, but now its just hilarious. if its not blatantly told, then its a slap in the face, time to find someone that ( Read more... )

so i was sad, but after i read my last couple of journal entrys, all i can think is why would i let a stupid boy get in my head like that? why did i let myself bring him down to that level for a year? why do i still feel like i must have him even though all i know is once we are back toegther we will be incredibly miserable ( Read more... )

im happy. =)

what has happend? everything has flipped backwards and i dont understand? the one person i want, doesnt want me and the people i dont want...want me?! this isnt making sence, i just want this one person, and i cant even have him because i guess hes just too fucking good for me. thats all i can come up with, im not fucken cool enough to take out to ( Read more... )

things can get better, but if they go and chase someone once you upset them,then what the fuck is the point? i decied to stop being that immature when i decied i wanted a change and i wanted things to work. honestly im tired, im sick, i hurt, this is nothing but painful, i have no idea what to do, i have been in tears since that aweful day, there ( Read more... )

I have asked myself "what am i doing?" more than a hundred times today and now that i sit here for a few hours i really do mean, what in the hell am i doing? i really do feel like im moving foward but obviously im not, i hate this state of mind, its very tricky. I dont know what im doing, i know i know that i dont know what im doing, so why the ( Read more... )