so of course finals week is kicking my ass...but its a totally new finals experience i think. i realized ill be re-re-taking a class (3rd times a charm?), and i slept at study commons...4 chairs isnt a bad bed ( Read more... )

for the first time in my life, i played in mud. we threw caution to the wind (and rain) and straight slid down a mudslide into a giant pool of nasty mudwater. we splashed in parking lot puddles like 7 year old walking home from school. and it felt so good...as repulsed as i am by dirty and gross things...it felt really good ( Read more... )

its kind of funny how we all write about the bad stuff in here. maybe its because we want to be understood...maybe we want to tell certain people things, and we're allllll a little too weak to confront...or maybe we all just get too wrapped up in the bad stuff, and thats the only thing we really express in writing....or maybe we just have nothing ( Read more... )

from what i can remember, tuesday was the longest day of my life ( Read more... )

its been a long time... so much has gone on, so much has changed....life has happened a lot ( Read more... )

=FIRSTS ( Read more... )

so now seans gone too. this might be a pretty boring ass week/weekend =\

so i dont know when enough is enough. it seems like it might be at the point where i just cant try anymore...when i just need to give it up. but i dont want to. not at all. i dont even want that much out of it right now....just a little...a little bit more. just to know ( Read more... )

no contact, no response, apparently no cares. how do i know. whens it enough...

this was a strange and scary day. as if it didn't happen. as if i was nothing. as if i did nothing. as if nothing is real. no meaning, no reality, no direction.

w a i l f...

stupid letter entries...

tdfbscoyhgts. aing, slmtfa. ffipmosfm.