i thought.. this was over.. i thought it wouldnt happen again.. i set myself up for failure, disappointment.. i feel like my world is turned upside down. . i knew it.. i just knew it.. i knew it would happen.. as much as i bury it.. it just resurfaces.. over and over and over.. i remind myself that its not me.. im not the one with the problem.. but ( Read more... )

How do u spend the rest of your life with someone when they dont want to share any aspect of their life with you..

he said it...
i cant believe it..
i jinxed myself..

we were watching housewives of new jersey..
and he said the name..

i wanted to throw up..

i dont know if he noticed me pause..
when he said it..

i need closure ( Read more... )

nevermind..

i try to be affectionate towards you..
but youre just constantly mad..
always in a bad mood..
always have a short temper..
always telling me what to do..
how to do things..

i never know when theres a good time
to talk to you..

ill just be a fucking robot..
and take orders.. like a slave..

like what my mom does..

life is so different from the past 5 years ( Read more... )

i have never felt so disgusted with my body..
my self esteem has hit such a low..
i want to cry everyday looking at myself in the mirror..

i want to starve myself so bad.. but i know
i cant for my baby..

i just want to cry..

I Have never felt so disrespected in my life.. in front of my mother especially.. i feel bad enough ( Read more... )

I only signed up 4 1 child not 2.. ive had it with his fucking attitude problem..im nt here to fucking pick up after his pig sty ass then having him complain that i dont do shit..

i shook the magic 8 ball and asked if he was cheating on me..
and it said yes in 8 different ways..

must be true