Whiskey and cigarettes on a cold night in December.

I sit here alone and try to dismember

Remnants of old memories i can hardly remember

Taste of your kiss and those hips so tender

I wish i could slit both wrists and just surrender

This broken old soul into a cold night in December.

Fri, 11 Oct 19 @ 1401hrs

My life seems unfulfilled; i may have an extraordinary army career, one many can only dream of. But i still feel various aspects of my normal life has not lived up to its potential. I could’ve studied harder in poly, could’ve studied in a university and lived in a hall and experienced the dorm life. There are so many things ( Read more... )

Mon, 7 Oct 19 @ 1222hrs

I pour water on my boots and watch as it immediately begins to evaporate. I thought by doing so it would help cool the superheated air surrounding my toes and making it feel less like someone was burning them with a lighter. There is no escaping the heat, the sun stares down menacingly at me and watches mercilessly as i ( Read more... )

Sat, 5 Oct 19 @ 1339hrs

The wind blows and the trees begin their chorus of rustles and synchronised ‘shhh’s. They are thin and malnourised but perfectly suited to the desert-like conditions in the daytime. They provide shade but the little shade they provide is massive relief to the soldiers finding shelter at their bases. Three to five rangers at ( Read more... )

Wed, 2 Oct 19 @ 1312hrs

Some times the desire to stop living is so strong it makes me forget i’m actually very afraid to die. Jumping from a high place isn’t the best way to go, the ground rushes up too quickly and it’d take an inhumane amount of courage or delirium to take that step off. I would know because i’ve jumped out of airplanes and the ( Read more... )

On the eve of such a great undertaking i find that my thoughts gravitate towards one person, again, year after year.
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7 years have blown by; some rather tumultuously and others a breeze.
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I think it’s a massive privilege to protect the sovereignty of my country, especially on days like today. To be trained to act as a preventive measure against unnecessary bloodshed but also with the ability to do violence on those who choose to ignore diplomacy. My job is reflective of my personality; to work quietly, almost in the shadows, without ( Read more... )

I wish you knew that I wanted you to know how I feel. That I know that I could make you happy. That you knew that we’d be good for each other, again.

The light is dim and there are soft murmurs everywhere.
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