“You can’t stay in the corner of your forest waiting for others to come to you. You have to go to them sometimes.”

There was a soft breeze.
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Phase II - Day 32 @ 07:37:01

I'm seated at the eastern pier with my buddies, all but one has passed STAR Navex. Harry will go home after today and i will miss him immensely. But he tried his very best until the end.
Just now i walked, limped, to the edge of the slipway to smoke with Shaun and Ruwen and i suddenly felt a knot in my chest. The sea was ( Read more... )

Phase II - Day 26 @ 17:47:37This morning i dug a hole with my entrenching tool and took a dump. There's something strangely staisfying about cleaning up after yourself. It's like taking ownership of your own waste. That's probably why cats look so good doing it ( Read more... )

Phase II - Day 23 @ 17:59:06My STAR begins in a few hours' time. The need to pass it has been made more apparent after we found out only 2 pax passed it last night. We've rested the entire day so hopefully we'll do better ( Read more... )

Fear.

Fear is the relinquishment of logic, the willing relinquishing of reasonable patterns.

But, so it seems, is love.

Love is the relinquishment of logic, the willing relinquishing of reasonable patterns.

We yield to it, or we fight it.

But we cannot meet it halfway.

Without it, we cannot to continue for long to exist sanely under conditions of ( Read more... )

Phase II - Day 22 @ 07:53:36I'm shitting beside the signal store. We are preparing for STAR Navex later tonight in Tekong. There have been so many changes, i no longer sleep in the same bunk as yesterday night and my buddy has changed. Good rangers have left and worst ones have taken their place ( Read more... )

Phase I - Day 20 @ 02:15:10The phase is at its end. I look back and wonder how i started this course. It was terrifying, heartbreaking and pain all rolled into one. I think of all my hesitation and fears at the beginning and i feel a sense of accomplishment ( Read more... )

Phase I - Day 18 @ 16:18:59I watched a spider kill a fly today. It was at the edge of the toilet door, a small predator in the wrong jungle. Then there was screaming outside as the end of our toilet break approached ( Read more... )

Phase I - Day 11 @ 21:49:29First day we've been able to go to bed at a humanely hour. Today has been relatively smooth sailing except for the slight blip in the AM with Wei Ming ( Read more... )