i broke up with derick three days ago. i am truly an idiot.

i dont know what to feel anymore. something tells me i never knew to begin with.

everybody is leaving me (either mentally or physically). its depressing. here's a list of people who are either physically gone or emotionally detatched from me.

1.) Brian went away to drama camp for 3 weeks. NOOOO!
2.) Czarine is in the city ALL the time basically so i dont get to see her too often.
3.) BLUEBERRY had to go do his military thing...so ( Read more... )

some things i've been doing lately...

1.) went to the beack with N, czarine, SJ, and lauren. it was cool and the waves were sorta rough. i haven't been back since cuz the weather's been gay.
2.) went to see pirates with my salmon friends. it was good. they dressed up but i was like eh f that. instead i was their captive lol
3.) last week i ran...into ( Read more... )

hm for once i'm not going to write about myself or what i did today. who cares about that stuff anyway. instead i'll write about everyone as a whole.

why do people steal? to posess of course. perhaps its out of jealousy of what someone else has thats unattainable. perhaps its for fun. perhaps its for survival. anyway its selfish.

why do people come ( Read more... )

sometimes it feels like i'm digging my own grave

i've been deeply disappointed in myself lately...for things that have happened over the past few days. i feel like its all my fault. probably because it is. i keep asking myself, "what's wrong with you?" but in actuality the real question is, "what's not?"

oh well. at least matthew has stopped talking to me. sometimes it feels like he infiltrates my ( Read more... )

life is interesting. u never know what to expect. i dont know what to think anymore. im thinking of things. they're not necessarily good either...well depending on perspective. it is bound to only cause trouble. i have to keep everything to myself. at least things lately have been interesting.

boredom is my vice. loneliness is my curse.

ok its 1am and i'm too angry to sleep so i'm gonna rant about everyone who's been bothering me lately and of course my job as a slave cashier.

my friends suck...well some of them (not czarine and lauren and salmon...i love u guys.) but yeah i have been calling people and no one is calling me back. its like...if u dont have time for me then u can at ( Read more... )

hey hey heyyy... here's a list of new things that i forgot to write about ( Read more... )