Because of me. Because you ditch me. When I think of the past. Every time I realize the future. If I look in the mirror. Since this is the present. Because you shoot too.

I have to do an important presentation in front of very important people today and I can barely type this

Sitting here wondering why. I still want to die. I've bled so much. Nobody can see or wants to help me find the way. Why does it feel like this burning. Needles and razors hug me while I lay here alone.

Incredibly depressed and suicidal it's vital to realize the life I'm willing to waste had a taste and got kicked in the face. I wanna turn it around stop hating this town get down off the chair, maybe untie the noose first. It gets worse as I use these drugs "I just need a hug," shut up. Cut it up. Double the profits son and we won this game. It's ( Read more... )

It is pretty easy to like this new Foo Fighters album. Jams out so hard. I am the last consumer to buy cds. Please play at maximum volume.

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What just happened in here. Where did she go? Why do I feel empty?

I think I am infected, pus and blood, coughs and choking. I've been careful but what does that even mean? Shit, I probably deserve this. I am lonely and scared. In this multifaceted darkness I sit in my prison.

So many chems. Black market. Gray market. IIllegal or immoral. I am not immortal. This is their research and I represent the warnings they feed to scared children. Parasitic relationship with the I.V. drip. Oh, the drip down my throat. In my brain. Cycle towards self destruct.

Maybe half a reason not to.