living creature on earth dies alone."
-Donnie Darko


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                 Over the wires came leaping
and i felt suddenly
dizzy
     With the jostling and shouting of merry flowers
wee skipping high-heeled flames
courtesied before my eyes
                         or twinkling over to my side
Looked up
with impertinently exquisite faces
floating hands were laid upon me
I was whirled and tossed into ( Read more... )

for the second time in my entire life, and it didnt do anything.

Rest in peace.

I can write the saddest lines.

Write for example: 'The night is fractured
and they shiver, blue, those stars, in the distance'

The night wind turns in the sky and sings.
I can write the saddest lines tonight.
I loved her, sometimes she loved me too.

On nights like these I held her in my arms.
I kissed her greatly under the infinite sky.

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She wanted to leave me, she thought she was superior,
And I'd been keeping her in the dark, and she was resentful--
Wasting her days waiting on a half-corpse!
And secretly she began to hope I'd die.
Then she could cover my mouth and eyes, cover me entirely,
And wear my painted face the way a mummy-case
Wears the face of a pharaoh, though its made of mud ( Read more... )

nothing lasts forever.

Okay so right after I posted my last entry, I decided to go to Jasonpalooooooooooooza and get drunk, and I DID. I dont remember anything, woo, go me. Not. Maria and Steph came over before to pregame aka drink out of 2 small airplane bottles of bacardi lmao and beer. I was buzzed but nothing really. We took a cab to Jasons and thats when I took ( Read more... )

I feel so alone I just want to screammmmmmm. Im so sick of my "best friends" coming and going, popping up only when they have nobody else to hang out with, or when they need a place to sleep or hang out. I would rather still be living with my parents. I hate living alone. It's miserable and boring and unfulfilling, even when people are over. It was ( Read more... )

The saddest day of my life was August 11th, 2007, a year and 3 days ago.

"Chelsea, I think you're ready to be where you are now". 
I've been gone from Bromley Brook since that day, but I still feel like I belong there, but at the same time I dont. I dont know anybody there anymore. I see pictures and recognize no faces. Theyre just girls that are in ( Read more... )