powerful strength undone with the sound of her voice
her heart stretched out for someone
she lives in a lone world
noone to dress her wounds of hate
self infliction on her arms
her soul breaks with everyone watching
now forget her

wow... so i have the entire fucking weekend off! blah blah blah what am i gonna do with myself. i went shopping today, and got the coolest shit. i got a whopping 120 for my paycheck... woot. oh well they didnt pay me for the first week.

i miss him yet he'll never know.

so i got my license. but now its taken away cause i got drunk the other night. last night i left my house wihout telling my parents so they kicked me out for the night. i spent the night at bens house. btw, my cells disconnected,,, ill call u when its not nemore. why cant my freakin life just be boring,,, all i do is think about life and how mines ( Read more... )

i offically got my license! watch out small animals and bikers!

blah! i just got off work from 1230-9... the longest shift ever in life.oh well, im making good money. my birthdays tomorrow... im really not that excited at all. i dont know why ive been so down lately! its really annoying.

cx

yesterday was an eventful day. me and ben went to petsmart to change some hours, went to best buy to see erin turner(the cutest ever!), went to his friend vinnies house to watch their band, (vinnies so hot... and i accidently told tah to his gf named chelsea... oops!) went to borders to get angels and demons, got some mexican to buy me a pack of ( Read more... )

i just want someone to love me.

cx

i called brendon. he told me i was too controlling and said i was jepordizing his freedom. if i wouldnt have gone looking for him last night things would be different. he told me that we'd never have a chance. he said he had to go and hung up. i guess i can only say goodbye to myself. goodbye brendon, and im sorry.

so last night brendon went missing from work. i went looking for him at stonecrest cause his parents asked me to. i found him with some people he just met totally drunk. hes was such an asshole to me. i asked him if we could talk about things and just ignored me. i dont know if i can take this anymore.i dont get how he can be so wonderful and such ( Read more... )

i saw brendon last night. we only had 20 mintues, but it was wonderful. we didnt even need to talk. it was understood. we couldnt let his parents see us so we constanly were moving. it was kindave amusing ( Read more... )

i am really tired. work is awesome, and i have so much fun with my gay boi jason. we talked about boy problems and how they suck sometimes, hes totally the queen of his relationship hes adorable. i think we're going to scorpio, a gay club, on friday cause he knows the people that work there so they can get me in. itll be so much fun, im gonna help ( Read more... )