Holly had this on her livejournal, and I really liked it, so I stole it and put it in here. I think it's incredibly heartbreakingly beautiful

Dearly beloved, 
we are gathered here today to mourn everything worth mourning. 
The broken laughs, 
the empty hearts, 
the secret tears, 
and the ones who don't love us back. 
There will always be the one girl ( Read more... )

It's Christmas =)
Finally.
I seriously LOVE Christmas.
Last Christmas, not so much,
but Christmas in general=my faveee.
This christmas was good actually.
As always, i didn't have to worry about "getting what i wanted"
Because i never ask for anything,
so no matter what i get,
it's all good.
I really liked how things were very mellow this year.
Last year=huge ( Read more... )

But, I realized there was a section in my entry last night that i feel like i just rushed through
The whole part about friends.
That's a HUGE thing for me right now.
Like, it was seriously so hard for me to just "drop" them as friends,
but I realized, it was whats best for me.
We seriously fought like EVERY DAY.
1) that's not healthy, and 2) that's what ( Read more... )

Let me start this entry with the fact that i am PISSED beyond belief at Mr.Trimner. honestly, what is that man's problem? Teacher's are not allowed to play favorites, and it's completely ridiculous that only like 8 people got to take the quiz twice just because ONE person is so OCD about their grades that they complain and throw a fit about it ( Read more... )

Everything has done a complete 180 since retreat. i get back, and everything is goinf SO GOOD, and i'm like on this retreat high.
Then i get home, and nothings different. everything is stil the same
my retreat high got killed, and i was brought back down to earth, back to face reality.
and it sucks
and it hurts

and then, there were those two days.
i ( Read more... )

Amazing.
Times ten.
like, omg, if i wasnt already in love with my senior class,
i deff am now.
i learned SO MUCH about SO MANY people
and i wouldn't trade this weekend,
or my classmates,
for anything in the world
honestly.

And Dan, omg!
he seriously just amazed me this weekend
he was my group leader, but he said like the nicest things to me ever.
i wish i ( Read more... )

Things lately, have been good.
well i guess
some things have been really good
and others.........
are just as sucky as always.
and things are starting to get a little worse
maybe we'll get through it this time
maybe it'll make things different
probably not
but i can dream
gotta get work done now
ill add more later

But my broken heart's been Shattered One too many times And I don't wanna see you anymore I'm just not that strong I love it when youre here, but I'm better when you're gone.....

I can't do this anymore.
I thought i was strong enough, and ready to get over this, to stop letting her do this to me, but i'm not.
i dont have the strength anymore.
i'm just ( Read more... )

Little Girl, why are you sad?
Little Girl, what are you scared of?
Why do you doubt yourself?
Why do you cry?
Was it her again?
What was it this time?
Why do you let her in?
You set yourself up,
You hope for change,
and it doesn't come.
You wait for words of comfort,
words of love or pride,
and instead you get the bitter taste,
of perplexing despise.
Little Girl ( Read more... )

youre too precious of a thing to be taken into my hands
oh shut up
now i wanna puke
thats like comparing me to a newborn kitten that is so cute but so little that you dont wanna touch it b/c you feel like youre gonna break it
not little..so idk how to explain it
plus im allergic to cats
i wouldnt touch them anyway
but if no one ever touches that "cute ( Read more... )