can i please have it put on record that boys suck. and are stupid. and all of the above. I think im almost done feeling like im completely wasting my time. is it sad that i feel like interest in the opposite sex is pointless at such a young age? if it werent for the wedding, i swear i would never marry.

i finally was able to wake up today. i have ( Read more... )

i think we should stop talking for a while.
right now i just want to crawl into a ball and into a hole.

slept in from social with sigma chi (uneverntful?) and didnt go to class so decided to visit cam fri/sat. hung out w/ his roommates mostly, which was not my idea. he took me for a hot air baloon ride in the a.m. then kim and i drove back to go to our retreat which we never made it to b/c the boys came over. then to hospital to visit mal. shes not ( Read more... )

i chose to not do crew. i think its the right choice, and i think that ill be more happy without the stress of it. plus, ill have more time to do other things (like go to football games).

i got philanthropy co-chair for NMC 08!! yay im excited, look at me go and get involved.

becca has quickly fallen off my list. i never realized how two faced people ( Read more... )

i havent been myself lately (at least the self i was over the summer). i dont know whats going on, i cant find the source. but its really starting to get to me. i think a lot of it is stress (...stemming from where??). and the stress makes me unhappy and makes me eat. which makes me even more unhappy. i need to find a way to control this. to figure ( Read more... )

i dont know if crew is right for me. at least the ucf crew team. i just feel like i have things that i really want to do more than be apart of the team, and they dont seem really welcoming. its not like last year, but that may be because ive done it already? ill know by the end of tryouts if it's right for me, until then, ill try to keep an open ( Read more... )

school has officially started today. Im not quite sure if I am ready to go back.. but i had an amazing summer and according to society it is time to buckle down and get to it, again.

summer consisted of frequent beach trips with becca and cam, SANFRAN, LONDON, and serving at Mythos, which was a haven until the end of the summer when i was a little ( Read more... )

life moves on as it usually does. 
this summer i am: working and school.

on school, i love my espanol class. i really do. and i love the fact that i am actually learning the language. y mi professor es simpatico pero pequeno aburrido. <--- i did that all on my own ( Read more... )

tonight was the last night i will hang out with him. from now on, theres nothing left on my side. and if he tries to call me, i will take immense pleasure in knowing that i am turning him down. he doesnt think im serious and he doesnt realize its going to happen. and it sucks that he wouldnt spend this last night with me (b/c, of course, mark ( Read more... )

is it entirely possible to want to be so far away from something...
and yet be so afraid to leave it because you fear you have not much else? 
and what if you're wrong.

someone make my decisions for me...