We had 4 out of 149 sisters show up at Greek Games today. thats less than 5%. Today made me realized that I have put a lot of hard work and time into something that no one is going to appreciate. because no one in our chapter has any respect or appreciation for any single sister. Today I realized that even the closest people to me can disappoint me ( Read more... )

i'm not really making any resolutions b/c i've realized i never keep them, but i will say that there is one goal ish thing that i want to do. and thats just to be happy. pretty all encompassing and yet to the point ( Read more... )

getting away from this city always does my head some good. and it seems im always needing it. i get tied up with my nothing to do ness. and it worries me and stresses me and makes me remember how i feel like i dont have friends. but i think i choose to live this way, not constantly always being around people. but i find that when i am alone doing ( Read more... )

went to miami book fair this weekend, 3rd or 4th year i think.
why do my authors not have anything out i want to read?
wish i didn't have to come home.

the problem with fairytales is they set a girl up for disappointment.
but every once in a while, a girl craves the fairytale ending.

the point of life is to be happy. you, yourself be happy. this is not selfish nor greedy, but survival. i also believe that being happy means doing what you want over what you should and learning to relax. life is too short.

everyday brings with it a need to remind myself of this, but now that i have figured this out, i can try to live by it and ( Read more... )

sometimes i just think people are stupid. and it gives me no faith in humanity. and it just makes me wonder whats the point. and then i just want to quit life. ugh, whats the point of dealing with life and drama and crap anyways? you just die at the end.

i think i just realized why i dont have friends and im starting to realize why i dont want friends. people are shitty.

i have an extremely hard time remembering why i make the decisions and choices that i do. and i think that if i could always keep those in the back of my head and remember them while im going to make a "bad" choice, then id be much happier with myself. im hurting right now but i know i made the best choice with what has been laid out in front of me ( Read more... )

i did it. i broke whatever it was off with cam. seth is progressively becoming less and less, just got to get my thoughts to agree with that.
i need to focus on school. get my priorities straight.
im still second guessing myself.

happy birthday to me.