crying.... what is the purpose of it? Some say its to make you feel better cause you are releasing your emotions... others say that it cleans all the dust and crap out of your eyes and is just a reflex... others say there is no purpose except to show weakness... so what do i think? i think it is a last resort when nothing else can go wrong and ( Read more... )

SO my day off turned into a go in and do the order and payroll day... god... well at least i got paid for it... that place just seems so... different... its been 2 days and im already going insane... i just want things to go back to normal... that is if i knew what normal was anymore... ya i screwed that all up too... well not really cause i was ( Read more... )

SO my day off turned into a go in and do the order and payroll day... god... well at least i got paid for it... that place just seems so... different... its been 2 days and im already going insane... i just want things to go back to normal... that is if i knew what normal was anymore... ya i screwed that all up too... well not really cause i was ( Read more... )

So... today was interesting... not really but meh... i fit my bookshelf into my room somehow and then had to clean and arrange all of the stuff i had to take out for it to fit... so i basically spent all my time doing that today.. that and just listening to music and stuff... it makes me wonder if this is how its going to be next year when everyone ( Read more... )

Hmmm... my life is not that bad... i am going to school in the fall and even though i may end up paying for most of it at least i am going... work is going well even though it seems that its all i do these days... relationships with anyone right now are sort of not there cause ive been really stupid lately and havent really made time for anyone but ( Read more... )

Its strange cause i just felt like putting all of those things in my post yesterday and they werent directed at anyone or anything it was just everything that popped into my head at the time... i was just feeling stupid so it helped if everything else was stupid too... so why anyone would resent that or think that its directed to them i think that ( Read more... )

SO anyways i think that people are stupid... school is stupid... housework is stupid... work is stupid... parents are stupid... cars are stupid... money is stupid... sleep is stupid... food is stupid... fighting is stupid... lying is stupid... clothes are stupid... makeup is stupid... pictures are stupid... gifts are stupid... jewellery is stupid ( Read more... )

So my mom is still gone... that means that i get to clean the house now cause she is coming home in 2 or 3 days and it has to look like i actually didnt just let it all go to hell... so laundry is fun, vaccuuming even better but cutting the grass is the best... and yes that is all sarcastic... oh well i havent cut the grass in like 2 years anyways ( Read more... )

Why do i do this to myself? I know that I open so why the hell am i not sleeping... its 1130 and i could be dreaming sweetly by now but no im up typing on my stupid computer... im really strange do you all know that? No one can comment on that... anyways nothings really new with me... well since the party that is ... just trying to figure out how ( Read more... )

so.... im a canieving little whore apparantly to some people *cough* les's new gf chelsea *cough* anyways she doesnt even know anything and should maybe stay the fuck out of my business... in case any of you are wondering what the hell im talking about go and read the comment she made on my last entry... that about sums it up.... but anyways at ( Read more... )