Two days ago I decided to email Bill and tell him to get all of his belongings out of my house.  I have a garage full of his tools, a car in there that's his, a den downstairs that is full, and two dressers upstairs.

If I'm not good enough for him, then I'm not good enough to keep his crap.  I've been nothing but nice to him, and he's treated me ( Read more... )

A few things have happened in the last few weeks ( Read more... )

I'm not taking my sleeping pills again.  It turns out that Bill came over last night, and I don't remember anything we talked about.  He tells me I didn't say anything bad, but how would I know?  My friend from work also called me, and I don't remember any of it.  Considering the things I've written after taking the pills and the fact that I don't ( Read more... )

OK, so just drugs... neither of the other ( Read more... )

But I'm javing  a blast wit them.  I'm really truing to correct my spellngm but wee, I can olmu do so much.  Tje good thing about the drigs is it doesn take my constatnly active mind and jummple it up abit.  And everythig isn't so 'manic;

Now if someone would quick moving this latpop thigs weoub be just peachy.

*trips out* 

After discussing it with my boss, I've decided that it's best that I take some time off from work to get myself straightened out before I get fired.  This is definately depression.  I've gone to my doctor and gotten a new prescription and I go to a psychologist of Tuesday.  I really want to get better, but in my state of mind right now I just can't ( Read more... )

I came to the conclusion today that I'm definately suffering from severe depression.  I cry several times a day and I think irrational thoughts.  If I don't get help soon, I think I'm going to have a breakdown.  I'm to the point that my work is suffering... I rarely want to go to work.  I've called in sick at least one day a week because of the ( Read more... )

Well, I've come up with a new plan.  I bought another self help book that actually seems to make sense.  OK, all the others made sense too, but they aren't working.  This one is completely different ( Read more... )

I never really was a 'holiday' type person.  I more or less prefer to do things on my own and not be expected to show up and such on the holidays.  But this year, it's particularly....down ( Read more... )

There's so much (and so little) that's gone on.

First of all, I kinda quit posting here because I fell into a deep depression.  I didn't want to do anything, at all.  Not go to work, not clean my house, not get out of bed.  In fact, it got so bad on Friday that I did call in to work.  I stayed in bed all day Friday and all day Saturday.  Didn't ( Read more... )