So I'm going to the fair with Tasha today.. and I think Ed might come.. I'm excited! I wish his brothers would come too though. Meh. Whatever Ed's awesome!!

So.. yes.. last night.. I was having a great time hanging out with my friends smoking weed.. when all of a sudden.. I started getting these violent cramps.. so I went upstairs and laid down.. but it didn't help.. I was doubled over in pain.. sweating and shaking with these horrible cramps that were making it difficult for me to breathe and all that ( Read more... )

So.. the apartment's pretty much done.. everyone got kicked out.. there were too many damn complaints during all the parties and shit. It's sad.. and everything sucks now. Now we have to find a new place to party.. me and Misty are at Cheryl's right now.. moving stuff from the apartment and eating food.. we're going back to the apartment after the ( Read more... )

So I'm really pissed off at Ryan and Adam.. they're jerks. God. I don't even wanna get into it ( Read more... )

So you know that I was ALL giddy about Adam coming over to Misty's to get his tat.. and he did... quite a while ago.. but frankly.. I just don't give a shit anymore. Don't get me wrong. Adam... Adam's awesome and I love him to death.. but if he's not gonna make an effort to be my friend.. why should I make any effort to be his friend? I shouldn't ( Read more... )

I've been really bad lately. I can't go into it... cuz it's something not everybody needs to know. I really don't give a shit about being "with" Adam. It's been Ryan I've cared about all along. I just needed someone to think about other than Ryan. And God...... all I can think about is Ryan ( Read more... )

I actually had a really good weekend ( Read more... )

So yeah.. I have a funny story to tell about Asians and mini-marts ( Read more... )

Today was a bad day. Bad. Just terrible!

<1> Misty's very mad at me.. Joe was really rude to her and said he didn't like hanging out with her and shit. So..... I am.. as usual.. stuck in the middle... the middle of a deep.. shitty asshole.. where I hold some responsibility for everything going on around me. I'm just in-between it. I don't want to ( Read more... )

I don't feel well at all.. and I feel like just... breaking down right now.. I feel like I have so much stuff to let go.. I keep holding in my emotions.. and I can't help it. It's natural. I hate negative people who whine and cry all the time.. so I put on a happy face and act like everything is so fucking wonderful. I feel like the only time I'm ( Read more... )