So If Youre Lonely, You Know Im Here Waiting For You...

[chemicalx_7]

  Lets see, I dont really know how to explain this.  Have any of you guys ever felt extremely lonely even though you know there are people around that care for you?...Thats what Im going through right now and its no fun.  I dont know why this is happening.  It hit me last night when I was hanging out w/a bunch of people.  I started to feel all sad

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[sardonicoutlook]

I feel that way a lot. The best way to explain it is ..You're in a room filled with people, but you feel like you're the only one there. I'm anti-social.

[chemicalx_7]

But i wasnt being anti-social...i wanted to be socail, but people around me werent helping. I WAS alone, and it wasnt fun.

[sardonicoutlook]

It's like that for me ...everywhere. Actually, I've found that I can feel apart of a room over at Ashleigh's ...and that's why we're really good friends. It's fun over there and I know that they actually care what I say.

[4everhere_away]

I care what you say...all of us crowding in Ashleigh's bed the last time I was in town..man thats one of my happiest memories lately. I love you!!!

[4everhere_away]

I always feel lonely in a crowded room... I can't help it. I just feel like I don't belong, in any setting that I'm in. I can be with my closest friends, and still not feel complete. I think its a matter with yourself that you have to deal with. I try to fill that void, but I can't. And when you find someone who you think gets you, and can possibly feel that void, they end up leaving and you feel worse than ever before...because you truly opened up to this person who saw who you really were..and then rejected you. Its easier if you are on the outside and someone leaves...I dunno. I know this makes absolutely no sense whatsoever, and I'm sorry. I can't describe it, but I just wantedc to tell you that I do know where you are coming from...and it sucks, A LOT. Maybe I just have more issues than I previously thought, lol

[sucubusmarionet]

I feel alone there alot as well..Thats why I end up getting drunk so I dont care as much. Hmmmph...I guess thats not a good thing Next time were both there, well play cards or just burst out in song and freak everyone out..heheheh <3 you!

[sucubusmarionet]

my icon is kinda scary......O.o

[chemicalx_7]

thats good that you feel this way too..not really that you feel this way, but that i have someone here who understands...thats making me feel alot better. Idk whats wrong w/me...i need to force myself to get out b/c i push people away when i get like this which isnt good...like josh...he called to see how i was doing and i was supposed to call him back but i havent...idk why

[sucubusmarionet]

I definetly feel the same way. All of my real friends hate me right now, so Im more or less forced to make some new friends... Im not really the social type. Its nice to know that you and I are in the same boat. Im kinda pushing Nick away as well..Im not sure if Im ready for a relationship right now. *bleg* So tired of drama..I dont see how Daryn and Alex do it. I just dont see the point.