i am very nervous about next june. very very nervous. and i ruined my hair with bleach and had to but it all off. whatever i guess.

my arm looks like shit this morning, it hurt last night and i had the worst headache of my life. that sucked. i took some ibuprofen and lay down in my bed. that felt a bit better, but it still was throbbing my my head. arg my life sucks. i want more coffee. i think i will go get some and maybe like a bagel or something. i dont know. i need more ( Read more... )

i am mad. i am mad because no one wants to me by partner and no one ever wants to go out of their way to do something with or just in general. i was always under the general consensus that i was loved by everyone. and not i find that that is most certainly not true, but is only when someone wants something or when it is convient for them. i also ( Read more... )

i am doing better. still a little alone, but i know who i can call and count on. b and i are doing okay. there was talk of us moving in together, but she wont make up her mind and is not saying no to me for some reason. i called and told her i needed an answer from her today. i'm not sure how well that will go over, could be good and could be bad ( Read more... )

i hate everything. i feel alone. please dont isolate me in my handmade time capsule.

so i finally got a dress for L's wedding on the 19th. it is beautiful and really fucking snazzy if i do say so myself...and i do. and i got shoes and a stole. it is going to look great. and i asked K if she would go with me instead of my mom. and she said she'd have to double check her work schedule and ask for it off if she was working ( Read more... )

so it's agreed. i hate to cry about this. i want to stop. show me how to stop loving her. please show me now. i'm at the end of my rope.

i'm cold ( Read more... )

you're a stupid butt face, but i love you anway. i have not slept in three days...and my water bottle smelled bad so i went to get another one.

if your life was this stupid what would you do?