I haven't been here in awhile.  Not even to read anyone else's blog.  Even reading the writings of others has been painful to me.  I guess because I cannot write anymore ( Read more... )

Criminies, has it really been that long?  It's been a bad year for me.  It's like when you take a day off from work because you're so miserable you just *can't* go in... and you stay on that day off for a year.  The days run into each other, the frustration builds, the self-esteem falls.  Bleh.  I've gained monstrous amounts of weight.  I've ( Read more... )

I am going to attempt a yoga class today.  This will be the first one since just before my car accident just over two years ago.  I already know that even the beginner poses will have to be done in moderation - I doubt I'll be able to do more than one or two (if that) properly, at least at this point.  But I have to say, I'm extremely excited.  I ( Read more... )

The hit counter on my other journal hasn't moved at all for the last three entries.  It's hard for even me to understand why I feel abandoned, sad, lonely and relieved a bit all at the same time ( Read more... )

Unbelivable.  I went through that damned meme thingamabobie and marked all the answers appropriately.  I tried to pin it in here, but failed because frankly, I just don't do shit like that, ever, and didn't know what the hell I was doing.  So, did it work?  Uhmm...no.  I then went back and did a copy and paste, deleting the previous screwup.  It ( Read more... )

× I miss somebody right now. × I don't watch much TV these days. × I own lots of books. × I wear glasses or contact lenses. × I love to play video games. × I've tried marijuana. × I've watched porn movies. ( Read more... )

I have from now until one of the settlements comes to decide whether to use this car as a get-by car or keep it. Me being me, if I keep it, it'll need some stuff fixed. Like, four window motors, two window lock actuators, battery, cables, *whatever* with the heat/ac, a full tune-up, tranny service, possiby a Prindle switch, new bulb for dashboard ( Read more... )

I have so much to do, I have no business typing in a journal instead of focusing on an assignment. But you know what? Tonight I am not going to freak out about it. Even though I really should ( Read more... )

Finals. Stress. Studying for 12 hours straight, sleeping, waking up and starting the studying again before the first sip of coffee. Continue studying until the last possible minute before leaving for the test. Taking the last tape of the last class before the final with me to listen to in the car on the way. Listening to that damned tape all ( Read more... )

When you get so damned tired that, upon waking, you have all the symptoms of a real hangover? Even though you haven't had a drop of alcohol or any kind of drug? I woke up with one of those yesterday...and then proceeded to have one of the busiest days I've experienced in awhile ( Read more... )