I was considering the idea of polyamoury... Literally translates to "poly" - "more than one" and "amoury" which, in french (and latin if I am not mistaken to a degree), means "love". More than one love. The word polyamourous would refer to a person participating in the action of being in love with more than one person. Now, I know this is possible ( Read more... )

As a way of laughing out loud to those who I really would prefer to destroy. In case you are so psychotic to bother yourself with my life. I really do not regret anything. I focus on the past because enemies entertain me. I knowingly tried to ruin past relationships people had. I became what that person wanted me to be, so he or she could destroy ( Read more... )

I don't know why I like angering myself so very much. I am afraid, and I don't know why. Guess what? He says he loves me more than he has ever loved anyone before. Could that be the truth... Is that the one simple thing that I refuse to accept? But when he shakes his fist, and looks that way, and obsessively looks into the state of being of that ( Read more... )

I have decided whilst I am still working at Red Envelope, and still have absolutely nothing to do for a large portion of the day, I am going to start writing things in LJ since I can't access Myspace. OH NO! I am certain I will die from not being on myspace... *gasp* I know no one reads this crap, but what fun it will be to write things about ( Read more... )

Maybe this will work better. It would be about time to start using this again. At this point, I have some undertow dragging me down. I feel my lungs prepared to explode, and I do wish I had chosen a different life. Yes, we all learn someday. I never do, but I always do. Is there solace now in the pain of others? I do recall a time when all this had ( Read more... )

I doubt anyone actually looks at this anymore, but I thought I might throw something new in here. I was looking at some of my last entries.. Damn that was a long time ago. I have one friend, and I have no idea who that is. Maybe I will update this more. Usually I just blog in my myspace, but I guess it wouldn't hurt to throw a few bones in here as ( Read more... )

Nothing real new going on besides getting settled in my new place. Bobby hates me, which is good! I think he must be mentally lacking for him to be very upset at me over nothing. Oh well, no big deal to me. I think he is mad because I told him that in order to be my sub, he has to understand I don't just play the game, I live this as a lifestyle as ( Read more... )

Well, nothing real awesome as of late. I am kind of tired of the clubs in the area. Julie loves the scene.. But, I am literally very tired of it. Stepped in last night after practically dying on the freeway for Heather to yell at me about some damn thing Bobby told her. Fucking drama shit. Then Warfy decided he wasn't into me anymore. He has some ( Read more... )

I am so tired it's not even funny... I guess that's what I get for talking to Nathaniel to all hours of the evening last night, then waking up at the f*cking crack of dawn... It was worth it though. I always feel so happy when I talk to him, and he kept telling me all of this very sweet stuff. Heh. Now, there's another guy... Which is a problem. I ( Read more... )

I am overloaded with responsibility right now. I just started a new job a yesterday... Very hectic. I need a break. I am certain sometime soon I will be able to have a moment to relax. Maybe in March I will take off a week to spend with someone special. *Sigh* I was thinking back to when I thought I was in love with this guy who lived in another ( Read more... )