I haven't posted here in a very long time.  I doubt anyone I had on my friends list still posts here.  But it will give me a chance to get things out in the open and off my chest ( Read more... )

Since I was about 7 years old, I knew my Dad wasn't my biological father.  I knew who my father was, knew I had siblings.  My Dad died 3 years ago, my biological father died last year and I never met him.  My entire life, I had this dream of meeting him, of meeting my siblings, just to see if I was anything like them, just to have that connection ( Read more... )

It's been a long time since I've been here.  Randomly clicked on a friend's post and ended up back here.  Maybe I'm not as fucked up as I used to be, but I just don't feel all emo so much anymore.  Maybe not seeing Brian in over a year has fixed something.  Occasionally  I think about dropping him a quick email, then I think to myself, why bother ( Read more... )

I used to think I'd want  a huge family, at least 2 or 3 kids.  Within the past year, I've come to the conclusion that I really don't want any more children.  I sat Josh down last night and told him this.  Explained my reasons and everything.  I'm fairly sure that this is going to end our marriage sooner or later.  He thinks I may change my mind in ( Read more... )

My mom had decided that she's ready to start dating ( Read more... )

So, I finally figured out that for the past 10 years or so, I've been pretending to be something I'm not.  Actually, a lot longer than that.  When I lived at home, I had to hide my opinions of everything because when I did state my opinion on anything, more often than not, it would start an argument with my dad.  When I was dating, I molded myself ( Read more... )

I'm sitting at home on a Friday night bored out of my mind.  The wee one has been playing and imagining in her room since we got home this afternoon and is much to busy to be bothered with her mommy.  Josh is playing Fable II and a couple of his friends are over doing D&D stuff.  I've been playing stupid facebook games most of the afternoon, and I' ( Read more... )

My sister-in-law is upset with me now.  Here's what happened:  Weeks ago, she asked me what we were doing for Christmas.  My reply was "I don't know, probably what we did last year, Josh's mom or dad Christmas Eve, my mom's Christmas morning, and whichever of his parent's we didn't go do Christmas Eve, we'd go there Christmas Day at some point ( Read more... )

I've got internet back, and I'm thrilled. I get to go through Oona's posts, catch up on my LOLcats and generally be connected again. Life is good.

I am so not happy today.  My daughter went to stay with my mom yesterday.  Soooo, Josh and I had the house to ourselves.  Do you think we did anything fun?  No...he sat in the living room playing one game while I sat on the computer and played another game.  At one point during the evening, walk over to him and I say "man, we really are a geeky ( Read more... )