summers ending. things are fading. people are growing ( Read more... )

feeling really hopeless.

and out of place

hopefully i'm just tired

i need to be able to do this

hey, it's august again. i'm in the same room, staring off into space listening to something that reminded me of radiohead and time warped me back to the "good old days" and automatically thought of you livejournal, the only one i can spill all my embarrassing, emotional and underdeveloped developmental feelings to. hi ( Read more... )

i thought today would be better. i thought if i just got through the night that i was be glad i got to today. i thought that was a good way of thinking of things. i shouldn't have expected anything to be different, or better. i guess.

i hate talking to anyone i haven't talked to in a while about my life and "what i've been doing." it just makes me want to die. i don't want to know how great you are doing and how much you love life. that's nice. and good for you. but don't ask me how i'm doing. if i have something good to say, i'll tell you. but if not, assume that everything's ( Read more... )

i'll make mistakes again

demonstrate has the word demon in it

i find it very hard to demonstrate any knowledge i gained from schooling

is chasing blood down with beer

i stopped writing in this when i got a girlfriend. now that thats going bad, its time i start talking again i guess. someone can treat me better than this im sure. dont know why im still here. here means more than one thing, its a many of things... hey look - its 2010. i was just reading heathers journal from 2002. that wasnt that long ago right? ( Read more... )