So, I got more shifts last week. YAY. 2 of them were hourly which while giving me a real paycheck it also prevented me from having cash this week. Thursday morning I got sent home at like noon, a full half hour after we opened, so no money then. And then Saturday night, when I should have made a ton, it fucking snowed. But did it blizzard like they ( Read more... )

AAAHHHHHHH!!! I hate the feeling that nobody wants me. Almost none of the jobs that I applied to have replied, and the 2 that did I ended up not wanting at all. It doesn't help that I haven't been able to get to a computer or anything, so I can't exactly follow up on them. It's really quite frustrating. Meanwhile I'm making less money at Phillip's ( Read more... )

I'm looking for a job now. I want to stay at Phillip's still, but I want a real paycheck. Some place in Baltimore called me back and wants an interview, but it needs a resume (which I don't have), it's in Baltimore, and I'm not even sure if it's legit. They're basically hiring people with little or no experience to be salespeople or something full- ( Read more... )

I'm so sick of people who try too hard for people to either like them or fear them. But the thing is that everyone does it, even myself, and sometimes especially myself. So, I'm not entirely sure how to differentiate myself or the people I don't mind from the people who I really do mind. I deffinately mind the ones who wear too much make-up and ( Read more... )

The other night I had an awesome dream. It was the kind that makes you wake up horny, you know? Only problem is that John wasn't in it, one of our friends was though (no one that anyone on here knows). I couldn't really stop thinking about it all day, kind of wondering. Not I would cheat on John, but... um, yeah never mind. I love John dearly ( Read more... )

Ok, soooo.... work = suck = no $$ for bills or x-mas. I have presents for the most important people right now, and that'll have to suffice. I do not have really anything for John 'cept a $5 figure he probably won't even like. My grandpa died last Thursday. I cried for the first time since my birthday. It was one of those calls where the second my ( Read more... )

So, thanksgiving was surprisingly fun. The food was awesome, mostly because yours truly helped make a lot of it. The day after my mom and I took my nana to see Harry Potter. For 3 adult matinee tickets, 3 small sodas, 3 boxes of raisinettes, and 2 small popcorns it cost $20.50, so sweet. Anyway. John and I have been off and on lately. I'm not sure ( Read more... )

Yes, in moderation, liquor can be incredible. I've had a little myself, which makes me quite honest, so I'm going to go with it. First, I love how people who are in denial about their feelings and how lonely they feel must suddenly declare that love and relationships are stupid. I've done it myself, I admit. I did it knowing that when in "love" it' ( Read more... )

Maybe I should just give up. On everything.

I'm coming to a junction in the road of life. If I go one way, everything will be incredibly hard and stressful for a while on top of all the other stress, another and I will be unhappy until the situation is remedied. My third and best option is to talk to the person it concerns. I'm tired of the way things are going. I'm not very happy lately. I ( Read more... )