Going by the doctors orignal due date I am exactly 21 weeks today. I can't believe it!! 19 more weeks!! I'm ready to get this show on the road!! I swear I feel like I'm nesting all ready. I was sitting on the floor the other night looking at the walls and thinking....I really should make some sanitized water and wash all the walls!! First off mind ( Read more... )

John agreed to giving me full custody without him having visitation as long as he doesn't have to pay child support. He says if he has to pay then he wants to see the kid. Wow, really?? That's not assholish or anything. You only want to see the kid if you have to pay. Well Mr. I don't want to be a dad you should have thought about all this. I don't ( Read more... )

I need John like I need oxygen. Maybe Chad really is a liar.... I sorta started doubting shit John was saying because of Chad..... but like now since they don't live together anymore...John really is living with his sister and Chad with his mom......even though Chad made it seem like they were still together... I really think John was telling the ( Read more... )

I'm having a BOY ( Read more... )

I decided I could not wait until August 11th to find out what I'm having, so after a call to the doctor I was told they can get me in TOMORROW at 11 am!! Works out really good because Grace will be at daycare. I'll be 20 weeks on thursday so it's def time! I left John a voicemail...but watch him not show up. All of my hatred I had for Paul is now ( Read more... )

I sent John a text 2.5 hours before he had to be at work to ask if he would be the one to buy the car seat.......no response. Almost 12 hours later at 4 a.m. he sends me a text back talking about want to have sex. If I had known then what I know now I would not be in this situation. He wants to have sex because I said I hate him........so that ( Read more... )

Still no job. Still no rent money. Even worse now I have a voicemail from the bank. They want my vehicle back since the payment is late...again. I'm really stressing about money. Gracie goes to daycare twice a week since before I got fired those were the 2 days I needed coverage. I have to pay $50 tomorrow and I'm pretty sure I don't have it. This ( Read more... )

I'm so stressed out on life. I lost my job via text message on the 15th. I have 2 possible leads and a few other probably not possibilities, but I've applied for all. I'm selling a lot of stuff on ebay now and so far I have made some money. I am completely broke. I have about $50 left in my bank account and 3 maxed out credit cards. It really ( Read more... )

I'm excited. My laptop came today and thank god for those folks who have wireless internet who let me borrow it!!! I would be a little insane without podcasts. The chick who lived in my duplex before finally got her cable transferred...which means we don't have free cable anymore...and since I can't afford to buy it myself we watch the ( Read more... )

Well, I'm pregnant with baby number 2. I've known now for just over 2 weeks and I have my first doctors appointment on the 9th. The way I have it figured I should be due on christmas eve. It's really scary. John is sticking around. It's really weird not doing it alone this time. I'm scared and def don't want another kid. It's not easy raising a kid ( Read more... )