It's my birthday. I'm 24 now. It's really blowing me away. I don't feel 24 for one. Secondly it seems like ever since I turned 21 the time has sped up dramatically. I can't believe that in 2 months Gracie will be 2....Carden is over a month old now. It's just really crazy.

I have exactly 3 weeks until my due date...most likely in two weeks I will be a mother of two. I'm really start to freak now. Yesterday I was at my sisters and I had so much pressure I literally thought I could FEEL my cervix opening. Something is def happening down there. I'm just scared. I don't know why. I've done this before, I know what to ( Read more... )

I went to the doctor on Tuesday. She did the strep B test and checked my cervix while she was down there. My cervix isn't doing anything, but the baby is def head first she said. The plan as of right now is for her to induce me at 39 weeks. I'm in a lot of pain. On sunday I will be 37 weeks. I'm still working between 5 and 6 days a week and ( Read more... )

Good news. My landlord is fine with me breaking my lease and moving. I was even told not to worry about paying anything for November and to let them know when I'll be out...which will be next by next friday since I need to get paid in order to get a storage unit! I don't want to live with my mother, but we have too. Once Grace fell asleep I went ( Read more... )

I'll be 30 weeks tomorrow. 10 more to go THANK GOD! I'm so ready for this to be over!! I don't know if I mentioned this, but I am due dec 21 and I asked my dr if I don't go into labor by then if I can be induced on the 21st and she has no problem with that as long as my cervix has dilated a little and the baby is face down. I'm Gracie's only parent ( Read more... )

This has been one hell of a bad day ( Read more... )

I'm starting to wonder if John was really even his name. I find out two days ago he's lied the whole time I've known him about his sisters address. It just so happens she lives right next to the post office...and when I was dropping bills in the slot today my blood went cold because I look up and there is his truck. His fucking truck with his four ( Read more... )

I'm 24 weeks 1 day. Still haven't heard from John. I sent him a text the other night and asked if he was ready to grow and be a man and start helping me with things. No response. I guess not. My stress level is out of this world. I have at least 5 panic attacks everyday. I'm back on the list for daycare assistance, but they tell me I have 200 ( Read more... )

I just noticed that my uterus has officially hit my belly button!! YAY!! I'll be starting the 6 month next week. This will def be my last. I enjoyed being pregnant the first time....this time I'm just really over it and I still have so long to go!! At least I know how labor goes this time around. I'm not scared in the least. My motto is, "let's ( Read more... )

I'm ready for fall. This is kinda sick I know, but I'm really looking forward to hoodie season where I can wear really thick fuzzy socks and turn the heat on. It's stupid really and pretty sad, but I really like that lonely cozy feeling I get out of it. I always have, I don't know why. The mornings have been really cool here lately....54..55 ( Read more... )