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I hate it when I feel like this.
Unrestricted and unrestrained in my fear.
My mind slow dances with every unknown minute seducing the thoughts
Into something that makes it all unbearable.
Too much bullshit and not enough vodka.
Ignorance is bliss and you've fucked me out of that luxury.
L.O.V.E. -
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I cry like a bitch. I called my Mom and cried to her tonight for an hour. I'm fucking depressed and sad as shit. I also haven't had a drink in a week. I care more and less about shit. I don't want to be me in this house in this life in this world anymore. -
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Why do I play music that I know is going to make me sad? Makes me think that way? I'm not sure how I feel about mind fucking myself. -
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I come here with ideas. I come here with thoughts. I sit here and stare at words, I think I understand them but I'm fucking lost and clueless, really about everything. I feel like I'm grasping onto a fantasy to what I imagine it to be, never the reality until it knocks me on my ass. Experience is a mother fucker, and unforgiving. Unalterable, the ( Read more... ) -
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Sometimes I miss home, but I'm not really quite sure where that is anymore. I think instead of it being a place, I just carry it with me. -
A Sober Poem aka Vodka My Bitch
So I'm in love again
the affair never really ended
slowed down for about 6 months
the fucking bottle
calls me
to
drink
not
think
back on Burkowski
starting to not give a fuck
about
you
or him
or her
or me
I can be happy that
I'm not hungover anymore
made it
past
that stage
It's not everyday
It's enough
It's never enough -
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I feel so "feministically" empowered, and I haven't felt like this in a long time...in ever? I'm finally on the track to getting my life together and without anyone's real help by my own. It feels good to be me right now, for the first time in....here we go again....but I'm not this loser I've succumbed myself to be. -
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I haven't been by in awhile. I'm on a crazy job hunt and should have it finished by next week, I have 3 2nd interviews lined up, 2 by phone, 1 in person. I think I'm gonna leave for Ohio to visit family by the end of the week. Matt got 5 years, but will probably only do half the time, but is eligible for parole 11/30/11....see the 11:11? I hope ( Read more... )