I woke up pretty grumpy this morning. I kept waking up with the need to go urinate but I didn't want to move and get out of bed because then it would really wake me up and I knew that I wouldn't be able to fall back asleep. Ack. I already struggled to fall asleep in the first place because I was annoyed with the fan being on (it dries the heck ( Read more... )

In trying to not be a(n outward) crazy prego I think I've made myself a(n inward) crazy prego. Yeesh ( Read more... )

It still has not quite settled in my being that the marathon I started training for back in April is done and passed. That period of time in my life seems like... well... a lifetime ago. The whole training for the marathon and hitting specific goals throughout certainly aided me in the roadblocks and detours that were thrown in my path for life ( Read more... )

I doughnut even know where to start. When I am running or working or doing the mundane tasks that fill my everyday existence my mind cannot stop with the rampant swirling thoughts ( Read more... )

April, where did you go? Nevermind that, 2010, why are you passing by so quickly? I find myself still flailing... however maintaining a certain motion so that as to not allow anything to catch up with me so that I do not lose in the battle with my mind. It is a never-ending struggle I may never escape in this lifetime ( Read more... )

189 days until i run in the Long Beach FULL marathon. with the start of this month i kicked it up a gear in my running and then of course i get sick. so i didn't run this week. i start again tomorrow. thankfully i have mexicans in my life that can get me antibiotics to kill the germies in me since i don't have insurance. the same mexicans also ( Read more... )

Today Caitlynn is going to audition for the talent show at school and I am a little afraid for her. I am proud of her for even contemplating the thought of singing as her talent and giving it a go. She is to sing Forever and Always by our beloved Taylor Swift and I just downloaded the Platinum Edition of Fearless on iTunes because it had a piano ( Read more... )

"You have a lot of fresh thoughts and, fortunately, many of them could make good sense. But your mind is running so fast now that you are on to the next inspiration before you've done anything about the previous one. Unfortunately, an important innovation might be forever lost if you don't take the time to write it down as it's unfolding. You ( Read more... )

spending the day waiting to work when my shift starts at 8 pm vigorously inhales. trying to shake this uneasy feeling i have that i was pulling out the acting-like-a-brat card last night also vigorously inhales. embarking on a new emotional journey is screwing with my ability to carry on with my bad-girl facade. haha. i guess this is my ( Read more... )

it is no joke that i laugh and cry everyday. commercials make me cry. random people make me smile. singing along to taylor swift by myself to myself in the car with myself makes me become all choked up and teary eyed to the point where i have to stop singing just to focus on breathing. friends that acknowledge that life happens and no matter ( Read more... )