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When the thing that was once your dream becomes below you...
A Cappella is below me. It is no longer a random voice that strays from the sound of the group. I feel like as some people have developed in their solo singing they've let go of their choral singing. People barrel through dynamics without any care for finessing the music. Fiona used to be like my partner in crime. So was Angie. Now they both sing ( Read more... ) -
Life is good.
Got to sing the Allegri Miserere tonight ( Read more... ) -
There's no time like the present.
I am re-learning my basics of ear training before I get too heavy into my interval dice/mode flashcards. So back to musictheory.net it is. As it turns out, different registers, and often-times descending intervals, give me trouble. Why use interval dice if I can't differentiate a descending minor 7th from a minor 6th or a major 6th. Those are my ( Read more... ) -
I am struggling with angry, bitter emotions.
I really need to get a handle on this. It's starting to consume me ( Read more... ) -
Back up a peg or two
Collegium definitely knocked me down a few pegs. Between getting moved down to Soprano 2 and not getting any of the solos all year long, I'd been feeling... not very good about my abilities ( Read more... ) -
It's just... cognitive dissonance.
It's juggling being broken and jaded and being naive and letting my hopes run away with me. Not that my hopes have run away with me lately, but that's what happens. I try to be all jaded, I want to be all jaded, but I am inherently a naive optimist. And I try to bludgeon it ( Read more... ) -
I learned my solo
It went well. The music was pretty amazing today. It was the Invocation of the new Dean of the Cathedral ( Read more... ) -
How does motivation just vaporize?
I have a solo to learn. I have several solos to learn. I have several ridiculously challenging solos to learn. One needs to be performance ready by Sunday. It's... already Saturday now. Yeap. I've got a solo to learn. And I will probably not start learning it until after I get out of work. Why do I suddenly have no desire to do anything?
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I don't know how to be close to anyone right now
I started getting close to my coworker, Charity. But she's young, and her work mistakes annoy me a lot. And I feel myself becoming bitchy the way I am at home when my roommates don't do things up to my standards. So then I just push away. We were hanging out nearly every night for awhile there. It was when we were trying to do P90x together. Then ( Read more... ) -
I'm a little afraid of this
It's a little strange. I'm finding it more and more difficult to disown what I like to call my "moments of grace." I don't talk about it. I don't want to admit it's there. It's those moments when I get this little hint of, "Huh. Maybe there is a God ( Read more... )