this weekend was really bad. my dad completely flipped out and went on a nonstop violent rage, scaring me all over again. sometimes i really just wish he would overdose. i wish i had more to say about it, but i've been venting all weekend, and i think i vented everything out. the sad part about all of this is that i wasn't even here for most of the ( Read more... )

i lived with him the past two days, and sad to say, i've changed my mind. i can't move in with him. i'll go crazy. i'll feel trapped. thats how i felt when i was there, trapped. part of the reason why i felt trapped was because i had no car. that was why i was there - my brothers had to go to iowa and they took my mom's car, and she needed a car so ( Read more... )

whaaaaaa i love new tattoos!!!

pictures later. i'm still all smudgy and swollen.

here are an assload of pictures because i am feeling ambitious.

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here's a random secret that i feel like sharing. sometimes, i like to go into the bathroom and dance. i don't mean my bathroom at home, i mean at school or at work. i go in, make sure its empty, and then start swinging my arms back and forth and kicking my legs up in the air. i'm sure it's stupid, but it releives a little bit of stress and bordum, ( Read more... )

wow. yeah. i feel like a bitch. i'm getting rather good at this. the whole "foot in mouth" thing really applies to me nowadays. every day, that is. i really am sorry, and i hope it won't be held against me ( Read more... )

why does he have to be so fucking stupid? he's being so immature and i can't stand it. i've never yelled at him to his face, but if he keeps it up it's going to happen. i just tried to ask him one fucking question, one question and he had to get all retarded with me. had to start cursing at me and asking stupid questions and getting all huffy. i ( Read more... )

last night was his work party, and we had such a good time. after weeks of looking for the perfect clothes and shoes, i ended up looking damn pretty. they had an open bar and weren't asking for id's, so i had about seven drinks in the course of three hours. insane. we did a lot of dancing, and both of us got a lot of attention. i really love being ( Read more... )

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