I Can't Let Go...

[chexy420]

Goddamnit. People still call me every day asking for shit and I don't know why I can't just tell them to stop calling. I have the number memorized... I spent the majority of my teen life wishing I could remember things, its ironic... if I could just selectively forget this shit that keeps sucking me in I'd be a lot better off. "He's at work, I'll

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[camelchan]

:( I can't even imagine what you're going through right now but know that I'm prayin for ya! and remember no matter what you've got a lot of friends out there that are really proud of you and completely support you. and trust me, you're more fun when you're sober! you don't fuck with the driver and get yourself cut! well... clawed I suppose...

YOURE NUTTY!!!!

[chexy420]

You cant drive anyway... besides.... this shit is bananas......

Re: YOURE NUTTY!!!!

[theend0fforever]

B-A-N-A-N-A-S??

i get it.

[snowoffwhite]

So you've made a decision to change your entire life. what that means to me is that you truly want to do this. Now that you'v made the decision though, you're like.... "what do i do now?" You're completely out of ur comfort zone and that scares you. You're right, that was ur scene, and you did control it. People did what ever u wanted to do b/c they thought u were cool. the thing is, u are cool, but not for that reason. ur cool because you truly care about people, b/c ur fucking intelligent, and b/c you want to make urself better than you are right now. You have that motivation, even if you do have cravings to smoke n drink and stuff. The cravings dont mean youcant do this, they just mean that you are going to be a much stronger person when you're done. Someday you are going to be talking to someone who cant stop, and you are going to tell your story, and they are going to be a better person because they heard it. About ur friends??? I had the hardest time staying away from my friends who were just like me, all suicidal and depressed

Re: i get it.

[chexy420]

*heart*

:)

[fade_to_black69]

trust me chels ... i understand EXACTLY what youre going through more than you know. i know im not in rehab or what have you but still ... im trying not to do anything for ryan and man its fucking hard. i want to so bad but i know itd crush him if i did. i have already fucked up more than once with coke and i did bars and shit since i "quit" and since he's quit. i hate it but i mean im trying. ive been sober from coke for 2 months now and every thing else about 3 weeks. i fucking hate it but its worth it, cuz i got ryan. cuz without him im left with nothing. he understands how hard it is, well obviously, but i mean its sad when i beg him to let me do something, anything just once ... but it never is just once. you tell yourself that over and over again but you know deep down inside it'll never be just one more time ... ok im going to stop rambling but yeah trust me, i understand a lot more than id like to ... and im sorry chels ... but im here for you if you need someone to talk to ... you know the number.

<3 shelbster

:)

[chexy420]

Im glad yall have eachother. We can do this shit nucca!!! 8)

[theend0fforever]

I'm proud of you Chelsey. This is an awesome step, and I know its hard now, but it will get easier with time. Just stay strong and chill with ya sober friends. Sober is... super?? Sorry, couldn't think of anything fun and catchy to go with it. Oh well, congratulations!

[chexy420]

Say it with a lysp... THUUUPER THOBERRRRR

[theend0fforever]

Hahahhaha this is why we <3 you

NO wAY!

[anonymous]

Man dont let the man take you down man. You'll be glad when its all over right..But you know you, along with everyone successful, will never be totally sober. Do what you gotta do. Fill that Chemical void in your brain. Fill it up with the underground antidepressant. Yeah.. you'll never be anything if you think drugs will do you any kinda good. Unless you wanna be something to the people in the "drug scene". "Your scene" that you controled. your better off being a freedom fighter. DO you think you've curssed yourself with the instant satasfaction syndrom. You cant even be successful in tha long run because its ither drugs in that hole or just pure sucess to kill the "miserable" sober. Tripp from the responsibility or something.

Re: NO wAY!

[chexy420]

haha thanks for the support, who the fuck is this?